Sister AntBee ... Welcome Welcome Welcome ...At 24 years old your focus should be on educating yourself and truly finding out who you are before trying to hook up with a mate.
It is apparent from your post that you are not ready to marry anyone.
You mentioned being depressed several times and that is a big indicater that there are issues/problems you need to resolve.
You have years to find a mate. Find yourself, first.
Thanks for joining us and sharing.
Please make yourself at home, because you are.
Much Love and Peace.