Mississippired I am a woman I have been that round too, in my younger years, but then I began to hate my self, but with a lot off hard work, I respect the temple where I live, I did a lot or praying, I am a singer I am always around brothers, and they cannot understand me, the shield has lasted so long, I don't know how to bring it down. Miss I have had some tough roads also, and it always links back to a broken heart, I had to learn how to love. When you young you are daring, but when you come to a point in life it becomes very dark. It comes to a part where you want to love, and there is this defense that says stop don't go no further, then you brush everyone off, some times to much knowledge is just as dangerous as not enough. You become aware of all the signs, as they say don't play the player, sometimes when something good come our way. Missi if you keep looking back you will never see whats in front of you. I call it figthing the battle with satin, satin cannot live anywhere where theres love. Until you release that pain within you, you will kill self inside, its not easy my brother I am going through that right now. But I choose lonley until I can identify that right man. I know he is out there, if you are not equal you will alway find pain. Mind spirit and body.