- Aug 26, 2008
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I write alot... its all truth, but this is personal for me..
I'm Just Tired...
If you’re looking for the word that means caring about someone beyond all rationality & wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, it’s love. & when you love someone, you don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy, even then, especially then. You just don’t give up. Because if I could give up, if I could just, you know, take the whole world’s advice & move on & find someone else, that wouldn’t be love. That would be some other disposable thing not worth fighting for but that’s not what this is….
I try to let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
And I lie to myself by saying Im okay
When clearly I am not
I’ve harden to point where my insides have become solid as rock
And I still cry
And I still try
And sometime if I had my choice between heartache and living, I’d still rather die
Its going to take a miracle to remove the sadness in my heart
That time when I’m alone and my way of thinking is not that smart
These fake smiles, I thought would become a permanent fixture one my face
I just want to run, run to another place
And I have prayed for some peace and Gods Grace
I know it coming, it just has not taken place
And it my feeling that wake me up in the middle of the night
Looking around for someone to tell me it’s going to be alright
But I’m left with the sound and glow of the TV screen
And I roll over and bundle up trying to find the comfort that love brings
I close my eyes and try to live in my dreams
And this loneliness, got me about to act irrational
Today I realized that I’m never truly happy, it’s just some days I’m just a little bit sad than others
This mean I’m broken and damaged beyond repair
Just when I think I’m moving forward I’m still here, no where
And I find myself drinking, not because I like the taste but because everything taste sweeter without a conscious thought
So Gin, Tequila, Rum and Vodka is what I bought
I know I not going to find what I need in these bottles and glasses
I just know this feeling hasn’t stop even with all the time that passes
But I step up and look into the mirror
I wipe my tears to see more clearly
And I say:
Hey friend, don’t kill yourself tonight ok. You have a really pretty smile and I know it’s not always easy to manage one but it’d be a bummer if we never had the chance to see it ever again, you’re really important and you matter a lot so stay safe and try and have a nice sleep….
I'm Just Tired...
If you’re looking for the word that means caring about someone beyond all rationality & wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, it’s love. & when you love someone, you don’t stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy, even then, especially then. You just don’t give up. Because if I could give up, if I could just, you know, take the whole world’s advice & move on & find someone else, that wouldn’t be love. That would be some other disposable thing not worth fighting for but that’s not what this is….
I try to let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
And I lie to myself by saying Im okay
When clearly I am not
I’ve harden to point where my insides have become solid as rock
And I still cry
And I still try
And sometime if I had my choice between heartache and living, I’d still rather die
Its going to take a miracle to remove the sadness in my heart
That time when I’m alone and my way of thinking is not that smart
These fake smiles, I thought would become a permanent fixture one my face
I just want to run, run to another place
And I have prayed for some peace and Gods Grace
I know it coming, it just has not taken place
And it my feeling that wake me up in the middle of the night
Looking around for someone to tell me it’s going to be alright
But I’m left with the sound and glow of the TV screen
And I roll over and bundle up trying to find the comfort that love brings
I close my eyes and try to live in my dreams
And this loneliness, got me about to act irrational
Today I realized that I’m never truly happy, it’s just some days I’m just a little bit sad than others
This mean I’m broken and damaged beyond repair
Just when I think I’m moving forward I’m still here, no where
And I find myself drinking, not because I like the taste but because everything taste sweeter without a conscious thought
So Gin, Tequila, Rum and Vodka is what I bought
I know I not going to find what I need in these bottles and glasses
I just know this feeling hasn’t stop even with all the time that passes
But I step up and look into the mirror
I wipe my tears to see more clearly
And I say:
Hey friend, don’t kill yourself tonight ok. You have a really pretty smile and I know it’s not always easy to manage one but it’d be a bummer if we never had the chance to see it ever again, you’re really important and you matter a lot so stay safe and try and have a nice sleep….