- May 16, 2004
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stolen property part III: a new day same problem part I
a baby inside me
he lay
but not for another day
no longer will it live
i cant claim it as my kid
all night i lay awake
crying in my sleep
because my childs life
ima take
asking god why me
why did i have to get pregnant
why did is soul live on within me
digging for answers
searching for signs on what to do
really knowing either way
i'm screwed
havent told momma
dont think she'll undertand
she always thot i had a love for woman
so this will be
another one those things
to prove her worries
right
and daddy.....
well
he'd kill me...
so what am i left to do...
this problems on my shoulders
alone
only i to survive
with out any
sorry, not even a baby inside
dear lord
i kno what ima do aint right
but neither is what he did to my that night
i cant go on livng
and breathing
thinking
and remembering
the evil he created
everytime i look in my kids face
knowing deep down i wish the hatred would be erased
all so i could grab my child and give them embrace
but i cant
lord i cant
i maybe simply i wont
im sitting her
feeling like ive cried all my tears
eyes swolen from doubt
all dried out
my mind is spinning
i dont kno if i should just give in
please help me lord
i kno you can
i thot you where here
when i felt blessed to have that man
and now look where im at
a corner, stuck in a crack
wishing i could push back time
knowing what i kno now- and never desire him to be mine
but i cant
so what now to do....
lord i kno you hear me...
please will you help me....
get threw.....
a baby inside me
he lay
but not for another day
no longer will it live
i cant claim it as my kid
all night i lay awake
crying in my sleep
because my childs life
ima take
asking god why me
why did i have to get pregnant
why did is soul live on within me
digging for answers
searching for signs on what to do
really knowing either way
i'm screwed
havent told momma
dont think she'll undertand
she always thot i had a love for woman
so this will be
another one those things
to prove her worries
right
and daddy.....
well
he'd kill me...
so what am i left to do...
this problems on my shoulders
alone
only i to survive
with out any
sorry, not even a baby inside
dear lord
i kno what ima do aint right
but neither is what he did to my that night
i cant go on livng
and breathing
thinking
and remembering
the evil he created
everytime i look in my kids face
knowing deep down i wish the hatred would be erased
all so i could grab my child and give them embrace
but i cant
lord i cant
i maybe simply i wont
im sitting her
feeling like ive cried all my tears
eyes swolen from doubt
all dried out
my mind is spinning
i dont kno if i should just give in
please help me lord
i kno you can
i thot you where here
when i felt blessed to have that man
and now look where im at
a corner, stuck in a crack
wishing i could push back time
knowing what i kno now- and never desire him to be mine
but i cant
so what now to do....
lord i kno you hear me...
please will you help me....
get threw.....
