Black Poetry : YOUR LOVE IS POISON

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  1. diamond823

    diamond823 Member MEMBER

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    YOUR LOVE IS POISON

    WENT THE MUZZLE OF THE GUN TO MY TEMPLE AS I SLOWLY PULL THE TRIGGER. BUT
    BEFORE ALL THAT LET ME TELL YOU THE REASON I WAS IN THIS SITUATION. YOU NEED
    UNDERSTAND I WASN'T SHOT TO DEATH, YOU SEE, I HAD FINALLY WOKE UP!!
    SEE HE CLAIMS TO LOVE ME, AND HE JUST MAY IN HIS OWN TWISTED WAY. BUT I HAVE
    DISCOVERED THAT THE ONE THAT CLAIMS TO LOVE ME IS THE ONE THAT CAUSES
    ME THE MOST PAIN. HE WANTS ME, BUT WAIT.... NOW HE DON'T. I MEAN YEAH IF HE CAN
    HAVE ALL THE PERKS OF A RELATIONSHIP, YOU KNOW, COOK,CLEAN, WASH... A
    LITTLE *** AND HE'S OUT....THEN I SIT HERE AND WAIT. A DAY, OR 2, OR 3.....UNTILL
    HE WANTS ME TO REPEAT THE SAME THING, AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. HE COULD
    DO THAT FOREVER RIGHT??? AND MEANWHILE I AM ALONE, HURT,SWEARING THIS IS THE
    LAST TIME!!
    THEN I AM WONDERING WHERE HE IS, WHO HE'S WITH...FACE IT, A WOMAN KNOWS WHEN
    HER MAN IS CREEPIN'. MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO PROVE IT JUST YET, BUT WE KNOW. AND
    THEN I'M WONDERING..."WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME" AND "WHAT DOES SHE HAVE THAT I
    DON'T" AND "DOES SHE LOOK BETTER THAN ME"??THEN I'M WONDERING.... "DOES HE
    MAKE LOVE TO HER THE WAY HE DOES ME", DO HE MOAN THE SAME WAY?? KISS,
    LICK, TOUCH, FULLY LOVE................
    **** IS THAT WHAT IT IS? I CAN'T LEAVE HIM BECAUSE OF THE GOOD LOVIN?? AND I WAIT.
    ........BUT HEY WERE NOT IN A "RELATIONSHIP" RIGHT? 2 YEARS AND I HOLD ON BECAUSE
    OF WHAT?? " HE LOVES ME", "EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT", HE'S NOT SEXIN ANY
    ONE BUT ME" " HE NEVER SAID HE DIDN'T WANT ME HE JUST DON'T WANT TO BE IN A
    RELATIONSHIP". AND I LET THAT PACIFY ME????!!!WHY?? BECAUSE I FELT IF I HELD
    ON THAT WOULD SHOW HIM I WOULD NEVER FORSAKE HIM. IF I SAID I LOVE YOU
    ENOUGH THEN SOONER OR LATER WHEN HE ECHOS THOSE WORDS THEY WON'T SOUND
    SO REHEARSED AND THIN.MAYBE THEY WOULD CAPTURE SOME OF MY WARMTH AND
    MAKE ME BELIEVE IT AGAIN. AND I FELT IF I MADE LOVE TO HIM GOOD ENOUGH HE
    WOULDN'T CLOSE HIS EYES AND THINK OF ONE OF THEM. I FELT HE SAID HE LOVES
    ME SO SOONER OR LATER, IF I STICK ON IN THERE, HE WILL ONCE AGAIN BECOME FAITH-
    FUL IN THE END. AND I WAIT.....
    AND YET AGAIN TONIGHT I WAIT.AND AS I LAY HERE I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT ALL AND I
    CRY AND THINK..WHY IS IT MY PILLOWS ARE ALWAYS WET LATELY? WHY IS MY HEART SO
    HEAVY? THAT'S WHEN THE MUZZLE CONNECTS AND I SLOWLY PULL THE TRIGGER......
    ARE HER PILLOWS HE'S LAYING ON WET? IS HIS HEART HEAVY OR JUST BEATING A
    LITTLE FASTER AS HE REACHES HIS CLIMAX? IS HE MAKING LOVE TO HER AND THINKING
    OF ME?? AND AS MY MIND RACES AND QUESTIONS BOMBARD MY BRAIN AND RICOCHETTE.
    ................I REALIZE THAT HIS LOVE IS POISON!! IT HAS ME DOUBTING MYSELF, MY WOMAN
    HOOD!! SEARCHING FOR MY HAPPINESS IN THE ESSENCE OF HIM INSTEAD OF LOOKING
    WITHIN MYSELF!! BELIEVING THE SKY WAS GREEN AND THE GRASS WAS BLUE BECAUSE,
    HE SAID IT ONE DAY. I HAD BEEN STUNG BY THE NEEDLES ON HIS TOUNGE AND BEEN
    SLOWLY POISONED,HE STRUCK SO FAST I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HAVING ANY SIMPTOMS.
    THERE WAS ONLY THEN AND NOW, NO IN BETWEEN. AND HE USED THAT TOUNGE WITH A
    FINNESSE I REALLY HAVE TO ADMIRE. LIKE THIS IS HIS TRUE CALLING. AND THEN IT WAS
    TOO LATE. THE SNAKE HAD CONQUERED HIS PREY. BUT I, AS ANYONE ELSE GET TIRED.
    AND ON THOSE LONELY NIGHTS THERE IS ALOT OF TIME TO THINK, AND FOR HIM THAT'S
    A DANGEROUS THING. BUT HEY IT'S A BLESSING IN IT'S OWN RIGHT. SEE THE LONGER HE
    IS AWAY ,THAT MUCH LESS POISON IS INJESTED THROUGH MY MIND AND BODY. AND I'M
    STARTING TO SEE THINGS A LITTLE CLEARER, AND HIS KUNG FU GRIP ON MY EMOTIONS
    IS GETTING WEAKER. AND I REALIZE THIS IS NOT LOVE, NOT A LOVE WORTH HOLDING
    ON TO, NOT A SHARED LOVE. AND IF HE REALLY CARED THERE WOULD BE NO SLEEPLESS
    NIGHTS, NO WET PILLOWS, NO REASON FOR ME TO DOUBT ME AND NO REASON TO
    WONDER ABOUT WHAT OR WHOM HE'S THINKING ABOUT BECAUSE HE WOULD BE
    SHOWING ME.AND I REALIZE THAT IN THE END NO ONE BUT ALLAH CAN LOVE ME BETTER
    THAN ME. I CAN'T SAY THAT ALL TIMES WERE BAD, THERE WERE GOOD TIMES HAD, AND
    MY MIND WILL REMEMBER THOSE ALSO.BUT IT'S TIME FOR ME TO CLEAR MY HEART AND
    ALL OVER AGAIN START. SOMEONE WILL APPRECIATE THE LOVE I HAVE TO GIVE AND IN
    MY LIFE WANT TO LIVE BECAUSE I AM A GOOD WOMAN, AN EXEPTIONAL MOTHER AND
    A **** GOOD LOVER. IT'S TIME FOR ME TO BE WITH ME AND AS I HAVE SAID NO ONE
    KNOWS OR CAN LOVE ME BETTER THAN ME. AND WITH THE MUZZLE OF THIS GUN I AM
    FREE!!!!!
     
  2. queentswana

    queentswana Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    You was shooting from the hips ...great thing!
    After totally loving you...anything after that ...is all good. I admire your strength to remove what's not in your favor. Wonderful write poet.
     
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    deep sweep from da hip of love u was aware to change
     
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    diamond823:
    I just want to applaud you for
    loving yourself more. Your piece
    was heart felt.

    Much Luv
     
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