Well here I am again with all this stuff on my mind. Now my intention is not to even give you this letter but to Get this off my chest and then walk away. I need to walk away from you in every since of the word See I am still juggling the feelings that I had(have) for you It seems that time is not helping. And the fact of these feelings are causing me to be hurt when it is never you intention. How did I get here how did it become this deep? I mean how is it that I am holding on to feelings that I should have been way over I try to get mad at you or think bad about you long enough To get you out my mind but that never happens I realized that I actually love you in your own way and it Isn’t taking anything from my love for my man. How does that happen? Ok so now you thinking I amtripping And I am I mean it is not even about sex(which is whole nother convo) It is about what I feel when I see you talk to you am around you How I hold on to the little things you say and play them over and over In my head how you inspire my poetry star in my dreams Cause me to sing. You get the picture.? Well it is safe to say that needing to see you and wanting to see you Is two different things I want to more than I need to. And I say all this just because it is pouring out of my heart And can’t be contained. And yet I know that I will never let You see just how deeply you have touched me. Never let you Know that my life is never ever gonna be the same because I can never be with you the way I want to. SO I end this letter feeling as hopeless as I did when I started.