i dont...
i dont lord....
aww....
i dont understand this scenario lord...
I,m not angry lord..
for there is no space in my heart for it....
it will be flushed by grieve and tears...
i,m begging to take the pain away.....
Was that the dream someone had of me 4 years ago...
he came in a room and he saw me laying down on tha ground and it looked like if..
someone cutt my heart out...
I,m feeling like that..
i,m feeling like that lord ....
This new man that came into my live....
that night in tha cafe...
those days after it...
the things he said.....
i opend my heart again....
i did everything in youre guidance...
you were there lord....
you were there lord....
My ex use to say ..
i will call you .....
but didnt call
This one said i will call you
and called..
My ex use to say...
i want to be with you..
he wasnt there..
This one said
i want to be with you..
and he was there...
My ex said youre beautifull
and youre body is heavenly...
but never looked...
this one said youre soul is beautifull
and looked and wanted to touch..
My ex said...
youre special..
but this one noticed my special things ..
and said those are the most beautifull things he liked about me..
when i do funny ""diebiediedie""
He started talking about future plans....
With a house ...him painting .....me writting and singin...
kids running around tha land...
You were there lord you were there.......
than the changes began...
him screaming at me..put out his frustrations..
yelling..
called me names ...
wanted to draw...666 with his finger on my fore head????????????????
than the appologises ..but than do it again..
where was this man i met....
i know what i saw...the man before that touched my soul...
and heart....
For the first time ...a feld a little that what i longed for for years...
that warmth tingeling inside that feeling like a flower that opens..
when you look into eachother eyes.....
You were there lord.....
i told him in the biggining everything about my life that has past by....
i didnt held anything beside ...
i dont lie...
first so....
beautifull...
than ...
Why?.......
lord can you hear me ..
i cried....
and he said it to me.....
I,m negative its not youre fault.....
but why not give it a try.....?
Do i have to go back in their again...
in my room..
lonely knights..?
Dont you hear me cry....?
i know you do you are there by my side lord...
and this aint about karma...
cause i didnt even had relationships before....
my mind is clear and heart is pure...treu..
would not keep someone for a fool...
I live today and in tha moment (i said this before tommorow we could die)
and when i say what i feel in tha moment is treu
if today i say to you ""i love you ""
you can count on it that what i say is treu...
those that maybe have gone out of my life ...
i also still do...
but from the moment it comes from two sides it will grow..
to more.......more...
from my side i dont know about you?
i dont know how they do...
but this aint cool....
No you know this has nothing to do with not loving myself...
what about warmth lord...
feld alive again ...
him hugging me..
jeee naww aww lord.....
though he was close sumthimes...
i was happy with a few times...
you know easy building it up....
At least he put the door a little open now and than.....
THIS IS A BULL POEM...........
but i,m hurt deep lord...
i,m in pain ...
in pain..
do you hear me lord....
what is this.....?
one time he lifted me up in the air and than put me down..
and smiled ...you know like father lifting his little sun..
when he came to my home...
you know..
he smilled i always wanted a man looking at my like that ..
happy...
and you know ....
i dont let anyone soon into my room (home)
some one i realy like ....
it had not been in 4 years...
i,ve been brave lord.....
awww
lord .....
i,ve behaved lord...
and even before...
grieving lord...
grieving...
was this passed by you or passed by mister D
and if it was passed by you...
what do i learn from it ...
or shall i just whipe tears...
of it was mister D ...
THAN HE IS **** GOOD PLAYER ...
HE DESERVES AN OSCAR..
and i,m saying it now....
if it was from you...
showing me that it can happen again after....
misterius beautifull man...
but than the one who will come ...
has to be just like him...
not like him...
but the effect that he has on me must be..
maybe 10 times better...
making me laugh 10 times better..
holding me that way 100 times better
giving me love 1000 times better..
being that soulmatch i feld 7000 times better..
it better be a good PIe....
other wise i dont understand this scenario...
i,m just talking about real...
real its
got to be real...
i wont settle for less lord...
not after you send me that dream lord...
not after that dream lord...
yes that one that made me cry....
that one that opend my eyes..
the one who showed me...
on how it is ment to be...
i wont settle fot less lord ....
i will never lie to me...
going for that real...
I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO FEEL....
and i feel what i feel...
so here is it again lord my heart...
for its yours to heal...
but no one aint fooling me...
you were there lord....
you were there.......
and i know when i am dreaming .....
and when it it real...
i still dont understand it lord....
but i know eventualy you will make it clear...
but you were there lord....
you were there.....
thank you lord
for carrying me....again..
cause you..
you ...
were ...
there...
i dont lord....
aww....
i dont understand this scenario lord...
I,m not angry lord..
for there is no space in my heart for it....
it will be flushed by grieve and tears...
i,m begging to take the pain away.....
Was that the dream someone had of me 4 years ago...
he came in a room and he saw me laying down on tha ground and it looked like if..
someone cutt my heart out...
I,m feeling like that..
i,m feeling like that lord ....
This new man that came into my live....
that night in tha cafe...
those days after it...
the things he said.....
i opend my heart again....
i did everything in youre guidance...
you were there lord....
you were there lord....
My ex use to say ..
i will call you .....
but didnt call
This one said i will call you
and called..
My ex use to say...
i want to be with you..
he wasnt there..
This one said
i want to be with you..
and he was there...
My ex said youre beautifull
and youre body is heavenly...
but never looked...
this one said youre soul is beautifull
and looked and wanted to touch..
My ex said...
youre special..
but this one noticed my special things ..
and said those are the most beautifull things he liked about me..
when i do funny ""diebiediedie""
He started talking about future plans....
With a house ...him painting .....me writting and singin...
kids running around tha land...
You were there lord you were there.......
than the changes began...
him screaming at me..put out his frustrations..
yelling..
called me names ...
wanted to draw...666 with his finger on my fore head????????????????
than the appologises ..but than do it again..
where was this man i met....
i know what i saw...the man before that touched my soul...
and heart....
For the first time ...a feld a little that what i longed for for years...
that warmth tingeling inside that feeling like a flower that opens..
when you look into eachother eyes.....
You were there lord.....
i told him in the biggining everything about my life that has past by....
i didnt held anything beside ...
i dont lie...
first so....
beautifull...
than ...
Why?.......
lord can you hear me ..
i cried....
and he said it to me.....
I,m negative its not youre fault.....
but why not give it a try.....?
Do i have to go back in their again...
in my room..
lonely knights..?
Dont you hear me cry....?
i know you do you are there by my side lord...
and this aint about karma...
cause i didnt even had relationships before....
my mind is clear and heart is pure...treu..
would not keep someone for a fool...
I live today and in tha moment (i said this before tommorow we could die)
and when i say what i feel in tha moment is treu
if today i say to you ""i love you ""
you can count on it that what i say is treu...
those that maybe have gone out of my life ...
i also still do...
but from the moment it comes from two sides it will grow..
to more.......more...
from my side i dont know about you?
i dont know how they do...
but this aint cool....
No you know this has nothing to do with not loving myself...
what about warmth lord...
feld alive again ...
him hugging me..
jeee naww aww lord.....
though he was close sumthimes...
i was happy with a few times...
you know easy building it up....
At least he put the door a little open now and than.....
THIS IS A BULL POEM...........
but i,m hurt deep lord...
i,m in pain ...
in pain..
do you hear me lord....
what is this.....?
one time he lifted me up in the air and than put me down..
and smiled ...you know like father lifting his little sun..
when he came to my home...
you know..
he smilled i always wanted a man looking at my like that ..
happy...
and you know ....
i dont let anyone soon into my room (home)
some one i realy like ....
it had not been in 4 years...
i,ve been brave lord.....
awww
lord .....
i,ve behaved lord...
and even before...
grieving lord...
grieving...
was this passed by you or passed by mister D
and if it was passed by you...
what do i learn from it ...
or shall i just whipe tears...
of it was mister D ...
THAN HE IS **** GOOD PLAYER ...
HE DESERVES AN OSCAR..
and i,m saying it now....
if it was from you...
showing me that it can happen again after....
misterius beautifull man...
but than the one who will come ...
has to be just like him...
not like him...
but the effect that he has on me must be..
maybe 10 times better...
making me laugh 10 times better..
holding me that way 100 times better
giving me love 1000 times better..
being that soulmatch i feld 7000 times better..
it better be a good PIe....
other wise i dont understand this scenario...
i,m just talking about real...
real its
got to be real...
i wont settle for less lord...
not after you send me that dream lord...
not after that dream lord...
yes that one that made me cry....
that one that opend my eyes..
the one who showed me...
on how it is ment to be...
i wont settle fot less lord ....
i will never lie to me...
going for that real...
I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO FEEL....
and i feel what i feel...
so here is it again lord my heart...
for its yours to heal...
but no one aint fooling me...
you were there lord....
you were there.......
and i know when i am dreaming .....
and when it it real...
i still dont understand it lord....
but i know eventualy you will make it clear...
but you were there lord....
you were there.....
thank you lord
for carrying me....again..
cause you..
you ...
were ...
there...