I wonder why I keep meeting women who saw things they don’t mean they say they want a man to not be about sex only, who will hold and listen to them I tell them all the same thing...that’s me, because it IS me so why...do a lot of my first dates end in sex? I try to be the one to not initiate it...Okay, sometimes I do! But usually when I’m perfectly willing to relax and enjoy their company, they can’t stick to their word I’m not a player...so it cant be my level of game I’m not really that cute, so what is it..I cant explain it seems not many females can visualize the heights im trying to attain and when the night is over....why am I the one ashamed? I love sex....but I love closeness even more it’s hard for a man who gets sex on the first try... to look at a woman the same a REAL man that is Why am I such a good friend, when I don’t feel I have any real friends people will backstab, gossip and lie to seemingly no end can’t we put the facades away and be real to each other? And embrace one another as almost sisters and brothers It feels so good to open up and confide in someone who cares about you but I’ll never do it again, because you never know if the caring is just a well woven web of deceit im torn between being a icon of difference or becoming a typical male I used to walk the fence between them, but somewhere I think I fell, and split in two and have a half on each side of it but I don’t like one side so I’ll try and rise above it Derrick H.