Whirling Vortex I don’t know what’s going on, something’s missing in my life, it’s like a pie fresh out the oven but missing a slice. I have a clue as to what it is but it seems out of reach, I think about it whenever my pastor preaches. Salvation is the only thing, that can save my soul, I feel as though my life is being lived without a goal. It hits me in the morning and late at night, that nagging little feeling that something’s just not right. Music and drugs are my only obstacle, even though I see it, I can’t stop though. I feel like I’m being held by invisible chains, as much as I want to, I just can’t seem to change. The only things I’m passionate about is sports and music, I’ve always had a good mind, but I’m afraid I’m about to lose it. I’ve haven’t felt emotions for a female in so long, but when I did feel love, it came overpoweringly strong. It ruined me I think, now all I do is compare, every girl’s face I see, I want to see Elsa there. There’s a couple people that I truly love, my Mom and Grandma, with hearts as pure as doves. If it wasn’t for them, things could be a lot worse, I’d probably be in the back of a funeral hearse. I feel like I’m cursed to be forever alone, I don’t even want to be here, when my family’s gone. The world without them is like pain without hurt, or an Internet chat room without a flirt. Like Pringle’s with no pop, or a stop with no sign, without my mom and grandma I would lose my mind. And to add to it all, now I have a son, what in the world have I done? It’s like I’m in a whirling vortex, that just won’t end, sometimes I feel like I have no friends. I have lots of acquaintances under false pretense, I’m not making big dollars, but my life makes no sense. I need a change and I need it fast, if I keep on like this, I cannot last. I wish I could just disappear, without a single trace, I think I’ll go crazy if I stay in this place. Derrick H.