Black Poetry : Whirling Vortex

midnightsson

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Whirling Vortex

I don’t know what’s going on, something’s missing in my life,
it’s like a pie fresh out the oven but missing a slice.
I have a clue as to what it is but it seems out of reach,
I think about it whenever my pastor preaches.
Salvation is the only thing, that can save my soul,
I feel as though my life is being lived without a goal.
It hits me in the morning and late at night,
that nagging little feeling that something’s just not right.
Music and drugs are my only obstacle,
even though I see it, I can’t stop though.
I feel like I’m being held by invisible chains,
as much as I want to, I just can’t seem to change.
The only things I’m passionate about is sports and music,
I’ve always had a good mind, but I’m afraid I’m about to lose it.
I’ve haven’t felt emotions for a female in so long,
but when I did feel love, it came overpoweringly strong.
It ruined me I think, now all I do is compare,
every girl’s face I see, I want to see Elsa there.
There’s a couple people that I truly love,
my Mom and Grandma, with hearts as pure as doves.
If it wasn’t for them, things could be a lot worse,
I’d probably be in the back of a funeral hearse.
I feel like I’m cursed to be forever alone,
I don’t even want to be here, when my family’s gone.
The world without them is like pain without hurt,
or an Internet chat room without a flirt.
Like Pringle’s with no pop, or a stop with no sign,
without my mom and grandma I would lose my mind.
And to add to it all, now I have a son,
what in the world have I done?
It’s like I’m in a whirling vortex, that just won’t end,
sometimes I feel like I have no friends.
I have lots of acquaintances under false pretense,
I’m not making big dollars, but my life makes no sense.
I need a change and I need it fast,
if I keep on like this, I cannot last.
I wish I could just disappear, without a single trace,
I think I’ll go crazy if I stay in this place.

Derrick H.
 
dh.


...you are NOT alone. i think... no... i know... we all
go thru those moments of self-analysis. when we
feel that we are complete-ly alone (even in a room
full of people who love us)... where we don't know
what the hell is going on with(in) us from one moment
to the next... going on binges where we are
desperately in need of an equilibrium adjustment...

mmm mmm mmm... i am feelin' you!! & i love the way
you expressed yourself so eloquent-ly... thank you
for sharing. :)

alwayspeace, chile.

elayne.
 
:wave: :wave: Haaaaaaaaaaaaay Midnightsson :wave: :wave:

Welcome ~ Welcome ~ Welcome

I know this is not your first peace to the forum, but it's the first one I've read ... and I'm so very honored. Thank you for this. Sharing so much of yourself in these few lines, giving us all to know, when we have these moments, that we are not alone ... that we are not the only ones feeling helpless and in need of a blessing. In the midst of our turmoil, in the deepest darkest moments of our life, when we feel we aren't worthy and can't go another further ... God steps in and blesses. Look up my brother for your blessing is nigh. I have received mine by reading this peace.

Thank You For Being My Blessing Today.

:heart:

Destee
 

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