she's a walking advertisement
for physical destruction
but there's no instruction manual
it's all a learning process
trouble is she's a slow learner
it takes a while for everything
to sink in
like for example
it's taken her nearly ten years
to learn how to apply make-up
to cover her imperfections
she's spent a lot of time
trying to find
the right brand
for her type of skin colour
and it's taken her
nearly seven years
to learn that she doesn't look good
in tight clothes
people might stare
so she's learnt to cover up
and not show off
the flaws on her body
and it's taken her
nearly four years
to learn that she is
really quite clumsy
always falling over things
and her skin bruises so easily
you'd think that she'd be
more careful
and it's taken her
nearly a year
to learn that she is
not sexually attractive
when she just lies there
not caring
that her man is not being satisfied
so she's learnt to be more
interactive
but it takes so much out of her
and it's taken her
until last night to realise
that sometimes she can just
push too hard
and then she makes him do things
that he doesn't want to
so she's learnt to be
less confrontational
and maybe that will
defuse the situation
before it starts
and it's taken her
one moment of truth
one look in a mirror
to know that she's been
lying to herself for years
and the tears she cries are for
the girl she used to be
she's a walking advertisement
for spiritual reconstruction
no instruction manual needed
she's learning on her own
(c) nfn 2002
for physical destruction
but there's no instruction manual
it's all a learning process
trouble is she's a slow learner
it takes a while for everything
to sink in
like for example
it's taken her nearly ten years
to learn how to apply make-up
to cover her imperfections
she's spent a lot of time
trying to find
the right brand
for her type of skin colour
and it's taken her
nearly seven years
to learn that she doesn't look good
in tight clothes
people might stare
so she's learnt to cover up
and not show off
the flaws on her body
and it's taken her
nearly four years
to learn that she is
really quite clumsy
always falling over things
and her skin bruises so easily
you'd think that she'd be
more careful
and it's taken her
nearly a year
to learn that she is
not sexually attractive
when she just lies there
not caring
that her man is not being satisfied
so she's learnt to be more
interactive
but it takes so much out of her
and it's taken her
until last night to realise
that sometimes she can just
push too hard
and then she makes him do things
that he doesn't want to
so she's learnt to be
less confrontational
and maybe that will
defuse the situation
before it starts
and it's taken her
one moment of truth
one look in a mirror
to know that she's been
lying to herself for years
and the tears she cries are for
the girl she used to be
she's a walking advertisement
for spiritual reconstruction
no instruction manual needed
she's learning on her own
(c) nfn 2002