Black Entertainment : when i became a man.

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  1. j'hiah

    j'hiah Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Mar 3, 2001
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    i recall the sunny days i had on the playground
    the sand
    the swings
    the merry go rounds- careless.

    you remember.
    spring and summer, slip and slide we would take a timeless glide...
    fun was free as we would climb the tree, telling secrets..
    but it was always a snitch " ohhhh i'mma telllllll, mamaaaa!!"
    on his way down the tree
    i'm like "man don't yell, ah hah that's why you fell ":tongue:

    but now...

    this backyard is different.
    this playground is different with hovering teal skies
    the "dirt"
    the "swings"
    the "un-merry go rounds"- careless?

    i think now that my mother was behind me pushing that swing watching my joy and laughter
    preparing me for the thereafter blur all the while knowing that i'd need a strength stronger than her to push me through
    these swings of life.

    she knew that the sand would not be the same
    and that later hassles of life would destroy my sand castles...

    she knew as she spinned the merry go round
    that greater forces than her would soon spin me around and around and around until
    i'm dizzy
    and sick
    in her ears is a different sound of a little boy...

    a little boy who has grown to understand that pain is the doorway to joy...

    and for joy i have to throw away all of my toys.

    it is peace i seek i can't find in my boys.
    it is satisfaction i need that not even the girls could fill.
    this "playing field" does not have the same thrills

    this playground is real where men make noise between grief or relief
    it has a hill to heaven and i did not see this hill when i was seven
    but she did....

    but now that i am a man, i wish sometimes i were that kid.
    and i can see that she knew one day i'd be climbing a different tree...
    of life.

    "when i was a child, i spake as a child, i understood as a child, i thought as a child but when i became a man, i put away childish things. "- paul, 1stCor 13:11.