I neva loved anyone before him He was my first everything When I heard his voice My heart would sing My soul would rejoice At the thought of thinking about his voice I knew that things would never end. He was my best friend. Until I got pregnant at seventeen The thought of my baby made him green The thought of his toungue caressing mine Made him wish to turn back time Fought his thoughts of loving me Told me to kill the unborn baby Said he wanted no parts of me (I felt lie he left me for dead) I couldn't believe I'd ever believed anything he'd ever said. Years passed, us, well we back and forth Me in the south, he's at school up north Forgive and forget's what I thought I did Until we finally called it final quits. Said I would never go back to the same ole crap Had a child by someone else a year after that Did I mention the first child is dead and gone By my own decision, couldn't raise it alone But always wondered what could have been I really never should've trusted him. Even more years have passed. I am grown Got two kids I am raising basically alone And the first love wants to fill in for dad I would like to have a real man so bad. But can I really trust man I shouldn't have trusted first He says I am the only substance that can quench what he thirsts Does he really want me. What happened to him?? Would trusting him put me back out on a limb?? He stepped out of my life when I needed him most, Though it hurts still, fine is what I boast. Cause I can never make him feel what I so deeply felt He was the first to see under my belt. Hell, he was first to see into my heart. I can't let that go. There will be no fresh start. Hell hath no fury, and war leaves no pain like that of a woman scorned who thinks it will happen again.