YES
in large part....
I ask myself ALL THE TIME....How to BEST use my self and my skills.
I also have been working diligently to bring that into fruition AND am confronted with barriers called FAMILY...at every given turn right now!
I KNOW I would be best suited to something in public advocacy...maybe lobbying or something...yet...have NO CLUE how to get my foot in that door or how to provide basic needs in the meantime.
Also...lobbying means in many ways believing that it will "make a difference" for the "masses" whom I RE~present.
I just believe I am trapped between "a rock and a hard place"...with "no way out".
As long as whites are on this planet and FREE to continue the destruction of Afreekans ....then...I and WE will continue to be forced to take baths, pop vitamins, practice Ancestral worship...maintaining alters and the like....AS LONG as they are FREE to engage in the acts of ******y that they do...toying with the minds and hearts of ME AND MY PEOPLE...then...I'll likely to be in this state.
In the meantime tho...I WILL DO what I can as long as I am here.
Heck...IF the "Ancestors" want me to release my "job"...THEN they need to show me how I'm to maintain a roof over my head, food in my mouth...even if it's bean sprouts...clothes etc.....until then...my MOM ...who is now an Ancestor done taught me NOT to leave a job WITHOUT having a backup plan...i.e another job that's going to allow me to provide those BASIC needs. you know:?:
In my profession, the choices are slim to none cause I will be going from one plantation to the next...ssdd
M.E.
of your stress? Have you been holding onto something that the ancestors are asking you to release, like your "job"? I don't want to pressure you or ask nosy questions, I'm only seeking to illuminate the root of the uneasiness. Is there another direction that you can take your skills, or creatively market your experience in a new way that you would believe is productive? I'm guessing you work in a hospital / hospice / etc...
When you ask your highest self what is the one thing I need to change to improve my life what is the very first word you receive?
in large part....
I ask myself ALL THE TIME....How to BEST use my self and my skills.
I also have been working diligently to bring that into fruition AND am confronted with barriers called FAMILY...at every given turn right now!
I KNOW I would be best suited to something in public advocacy...maybe lobbying or something...yet...have NO CLUE how to get my foot in that door or how to provide basic needs in the meantime.
Also...lobbying means in many ways believing that it will "make a difference" for the "masses" whom I RE~present.
I just believe I am trapped between "a rock and a hard place"...with "no way out".
As long as whites are on this planet and FREE to continue the destruction of Afreekans ....then...I and WE will continue to be forced to take baths, pop vitamins, practice Ancestral worship...maintaining alters and the like....AS LONG as they are FREE to engage in the acts of ******y that they do...toying with the minds and hearts of ME AND MY PEOPLE...then...I'll likely to be in this state.
In the meantime tho...I WILL DO what I can as long as I am here.
Heck...IF the "Ancestors" want me to release my "job"...THEN they need to show me how I'm to maintain a roof over my head, food in my mouth...even if it's bean sprouts...clothes etc.....until then...my MOM ...who is now an Ancestor done taught me NOT to leave a job WITHOUT having a backup plan...i.e another job that's going to allow me to provide those BASIC needs. you know:?:
In my profession, the choices are slim to none cause I will be going from one plantation to the next...ssdd
M.E.