This is my 1st time posting in the teen part and I've come with a very serious matter. Over the summer I was raped repeatedly by someone i thought i loved and trusted. He was staying with my family for the summer because he claimed he was homeless. I lost my virginity to this person, but afterwards due to the pain it caused I decided i didnt like sex and diidnt want to continue having it. I let myself be pressured into doing it a few more times before I put my fot down and said "no." He wouldn't take no for an answer and proceeded to rape me. He did it not once, but all summer long, keepin me at bay by threating to kill me and my family. I knew he had the resources to do this so I did what he said. He currupted my mind with evil thoughts and tried to get me to join a cult like religion. He told me he had a demon in his body and God wanted me to cast it out. It also turned out that he had multiple personalities, or so he said. He would try to slit my wrists or cut my neck. I lived very close to train tracks and he took great plaesure in dragging me there and threatening to throw me in front of a train. Being around him and his craziness for so long began to affect my mind. People began to believe that I was crazy, while all along he played the innocent role. Everynight he would rape me without a condom and eventually he got me pregnant. I never told anyone about the abuse that I indured so they assumed that I was just running around being fast and ended up pregnant. My mom wouldn't let me get an abortion and I didnt have the money to do it. My family treated me like an outcast. My mom barely spoke to me. I began to believe the evil things that this person put into my haed. When he left to go back home he told me that i had to come. Wanted to keep my family safe, I agreed to go. I no longer cared whether I lived or not, in my mind my life was over, but my family meant everything to me. My mom wouldn't let me go (thank god) I knew she wouldn't. He told me i had to catch a train and get to him as soon as possible. I didnt want to go. I was scared. He left me messages on my phone which i pretended not to get because he had broken my phone earliar in the summer. Eventually the messages became violent so i called him. He told me his cousin would kill me if i even thought of having an abortion. I had to call every day, but eventually i stopped. Later i told my familywhat happened. Now, I'm 5 months pregnant and I want to press charges. I dont want this to happen to anyone else. But can he get custody if i put the baby up for adoption?