Black Poetry : What about His life?

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  1. Poeticsoulsista

    Poeticsoulsista Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    :confused:Lost in the understanding of life
    I lay legs wide open and eyes wide shut
    Indulging in the estasy of lust
    Wishing at the end
    there would be what we built.
    Creating life as it every woman's God given right
    I wish this child would be more than another mouth
    A seed nutured by weed, hatred and greed
    I can see.
    The futrue of what lies ahead
    I lay calm :eek: just staring at the bed.
    Wonderin how could such great :love: be felt.
    yet the creation from that love must be killed.
    I'm thinking of all the possibilities of our childs life
    and I'm praying on the choice that I had to fight
    The choice of having a child and being a mother the rest of my life
    Losing out on that freedom of youth with no real strife
    Yet instill i'm a drunken phien for his smell
    yearning to be caught by his spell
    Even after knowin
    this child brings more worryin :uhoh:
    less lovin :flirt:
    growin older
    feelin smothered
    And my man's thinking lord please for give me for this
    Hatred burried deep inside
    wishin this sweet smellin, soft bodied, dyck lovin woman
    would have slain the life of our innocent child.
    But through this forseen picture of our life we forgot to think about
    his life
    Now prematurely ripped from my womb
    he lay struggling for his first breath
    While the nurses just covered him up
    not giving a fluck
    and that's when it hit me. :idea:
    Our love is an infaction with lust
    and looking at our son
    I only feel disgust :puke2: for my self
    Sitting on this cold and empty table
    full of sorrow and pain :cry:
    feelin the rain
    I blew him a kiss good bye until I meet him again
    Hoping he'll understand
    why he'll never be a man
    and why mommy took his life
    and didn't encourage him to fight.
    I am a Muderer. :uzi:
    As the guilt is eating up my insides
    I keep wonderin why
    I never yearned to hear his first cry.


    Copyright ©2004 Poetic-Soul-Sista
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    whewwwwwwwwwww!
    heavy drop of emotions & feelings
    expressed openly .........speak on
     
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    deepy going above and beyond PREMIUM MEMBER

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    no words really..
    only emotions running through me...feeling you...
    feeling..
    i don't even know if thanks for sharing are the right words..
    i do kno
    i cried...


    powerful
     
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    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    For those who make this choice, they know why at the time. Whatever choice is made, it stays with you for a lifetime. Explicitly crafted and deeply felt.
     
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    MzBlkAngel Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    sorta speechless here...
    emotions on a roll
    very very deep...feeling this drop
     
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    Andreattah Active Member MEMBER

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    My sista i feel you on this one...forgive yourself,you did what you thought was right at the time..with the knowledge you had...

    God will breath into your womb again,to restore what was lost...
     
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    THEONE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    ENCORE..............................................THIS WAS DEEP nice drop :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave:
     
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    angelicsage Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    hmmmm...
    this is always a difficult
    and emotionally charged
    topic...it's always interesting
    to see how a poet approaches
    something so delicate with
    such bravery...

    Heart wrenching but very well written...
     
  9. Poeticsoulsista

    Poeticsoulsista Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thank you all for the love and support. But I must say that this poem is not about me. Well, it's about me in the sense I felt these things but I have never had an abortion. I thought I was pregnant and I kept having a bad dream about having an abortion so I figured if I write it down may be I'd be able to sleep and long behold it worked. I'm over joyed that you all enjoy my writing and you can feel what I feel. That's the whole point of sharing. Much love and Respect given

    Peace
    Poetic Sista
     
  10. lilcherry76

    lilcherry76 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    oh.............i was reading your scribe and i was like................aw......man........that's messed up, and then i read the replies and then i read your reply and i was like oh! okay........i'm glad that wasn't you. but n e ways it was beautifully brought, but emotions took control, not so much as words did..........continue........one love :look:
     
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