Black Poetry : Weightless

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  1. islander

    islander Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Good afternoon, I'm a new member and I'd like to share some of my writing with you. Peace!


    WEIGHTLESS

    I've been lifting weights since the day I was born
    The weight of being born unto a family already scorned
    Of growing to be the one that everyone depended on...
    And knowing that I may never get to taste freedom
    The freedom of sleeping without tossing and turning
    The freedom of thinking without my mind burning
    The freedom of not having to try so hard to overcome
    The freedom of breathing without feeling like my chest is being stepped on

    But in spite of all the pressure...I've got to press on
    I don't know where my life is taking me, but the path is long...
    And I'm accompanied by an armful of problems that I don't know how to solve
    My arms are tired so my back picks up the slack from the weight of the world and of my past
    The weight of being looked at as a reject by my old man
    The weight of watching my mother stumble as I held her hand
    And of being fearful that I won't be able to pick her up again

    But my intensity deepens and I've gotta keep pressing
    Because this life ain't worh living if my kin have to settle for less
    Then...I start to question...less than what?
    Less than being nothing? Less than having nothing? Less than striving for nothing?
    Well, I've come to realize that having nothing is having something because having less than that means death...no longer living
    No longer living to fight another day
    To kneel down and pray for God to bless you with a little bit of something to make your daily nothings seem okay

    So, I'll take nothing over death any day
    Even if I have to constantly struggle to lift these weights
    Because my family's and my own survival depends on the moves that I make, so I've got to be careful
    From first light, to first word, to first step God has ordered my steps
    And I'm still walking not knowing where and when I'm supposed to stop
    But I keep lifting...I keep pressing
    And with every press comes more stress
    When I thought I've progressed, I've only regressed back to the beginning of an unsure path that's leading me to something I'm not able to see yet
    And no matter how hard I try, my back won't let me forget about the weight I'm already carrying and the weight I have yet to lift

    The weight of not knowing the extent of my gift and if it'll be all my family and I will have left if I can't achieve success
    The fear of being shot in the chest by defeat and the weight of knowing that if I don't write...my family won't eat
    The weight of thinking that every breath is a waste of time because if I breathe in for too long...my family won't have a bed to sleep in tonight

    Like I said before, I'm tired
    I'm tired of being weighed down by the strife of life because I'm constantly rolling dice in hopes that the outcome is right
    My future is blind-eyed so I've gotta walk mind-eyed and pray that the weight of my thoughts don't kill me long before my time
    Or the weight of my fears cause my joy to subside
    But all fronts aside...the weight of this poem brings tears to my eyes
    And though I pride myself in being a person that doesn't cry...
    I'm tempted to throw my pride aside and let the tears fall for every fight I thought I've won
    And for every bad day I thought was done
    And for every time my fear cast a shadow over the sun...I'll cry

    I'll cry until the deepest wells have dried...
    But when the water subsides...
    I'll keep lifting...I'll keep pressing
    Until the depth of my pen is balanced with the depth of my pockets
    Because when I can reach in an actually receive something...
    Then my mother can stop slaving for a system that has yet to be beaten
    My sister can stop living in a home that's non-existent
    My grandmother can stop hustling and finally go into retirement
    And I can hustle for all of them because my mind will finally have the muscle

    But, as of right now, the hustle is kicking my ***
    Not a day passes unless my mailbox presents me with a brand new disappointment
    Another way for my money to be spent
    And there's no way to circumvent my monthly payments because I'm paying a mortgage...not rent
    It's evident that although I'm working hard...it's not hard enough
    I've been in my house since Dec of 2001 and still can't afford to buy furniture
    Anything outside of food, water, utilities, and shelter is an unnecessary expenditure
    So try to understand when I tell you that I'm tired

    On the outside looking in, you may think I'm living
    But living isn't spending all of your energy struggling to hold onto the little bit that you do have...that's dying
    But no matter what, I'll die trying to deal with the pressure of always striving for better
    And though the stack of weights on my back only seem to get bigger...
    I'll just bend my knees, adjust my straps, and hope that I don't succumb to the pressure
    The pressures of life, the pressure of circumstance, and the pressure of finding balance

    Everyday I have to balance my wants and my need...
    My hopes and my dreams...
    My ability and my means...
    And I have to accept that the outcome won't always be what I expect
    So when defeat shoots me in the chest...
    I can take it as a lesson and keep on going
    Because I've got to keep lifting...I've got to keep pressing...I've got to keep striving...I've got to keep winning
    Rather than being better, I've got to be best
    Hoping that one day I'll finally become...weightless.

    Copyrighted by Tamara Al-Rashid 2003
     
  2. MzBlkAngel

    MzBlkAngel Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    :wave: welcome...:wave:
    nice poem glad u came to share
    hope to read more
     
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    Hi islander :wave: welcome to the family
    wow i am enjoying your flow
    it is really wonderful
    feeling you meaning
    looking forward to reading more
    flow on
    let it :rolling:
    :thanks: for sharing
    Peace
     
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    thank you for sharing your deepest feelings with us...i feel that you just let us into your world and i am very grateful...much love to you
     
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    WELCOME ISLANDER :)
    :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave:

    weightless you may feel this flow was mos def a solid piece/peace...
    flow on my sista :)
     
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    poeticlyspeakin Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I know the feeling, but keep on pushin, it will happen when u dont realize it. tyte flow tho
     
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    :wave: :D :)
    WELCOME!!
    i enjoyed ya flow!
     
  8. islander

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    Thanks to all for the welcome and the encouragement. I hope to continue to share with you.
     
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    this is so on point! and tight as hell. welcome again. :wave:
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    hey hey !!! welcome welcome

    welcome to destee.com poetic playground
    welcome to the new home u found
    welcome from above as i bless u some love
    welcome to the family of peace & respect
    happy u drop dis flow of scribe and join us
    in building & bonding enjoy ! :) :wave: :wave: :wave: :wave:
     
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