Goodspeed on re-establishing that stability. Most definitely a piece of you is missing and hopefully you will be able to re-store that balance. Myself, I have been struggling on that front for almost 4 years now. I am just now inner-standing more thoroughly my situation. I alluded to this in an older thread with the statement,
"Its the Erzulies. I started to realize this while in ATL and now that Im back home in Kali...well... the name speaks for itself."
http://destee.com/index.php?threads/sex-with-demons-are-incubus-and-succubus-real.52870/
In my present situation it is difficult to meditate, and forget about divination.
However, my dreams have started coming back with more frequency, without the dream paralysis. My inner-standing of IFA is also greater than before, but my health (physical) has suffered because of an inability to do any consistent (virtually none outside of specific dietary paractice) "rootwork".
If you are following my last few posts, I guess that explains why I finally mentioned the Lwa, specifically "Dantor".
Peace!