happened so fast
so quickly
so innocently
at first
then, it was
intentional
purposefully, malicious
without thinking
or feeling
or fearing a consequence
touched me, and all senses
went
flying out the door,
all I could do
was scream
for more that is
never wanting to see you again
yet never wanting you to leave
never wanting to be the one
to call first, playing tricks
on myself to keep myself busy,
while I sit, stand and lay idle
waiting
waiting
impatiently even
to be your victim again
took my heart, but swore
you didn't mean it
made plans, and broke them,
but it was never your fault
I understand dearheart,
you are busy,
you are tired
Yet,...
I stand in the rain
watching you eat dinner
with someone else
you are smiling, she's laughing
"Watch out girl, that used to be me!"
I scream
.......yesterday, in fact
She's his next victim,
I feel sorry for her, but
I'm calling her out her name,
pure jealousy
because I want to be with you
you have power over me, can't
ear, drink, sleep or think
with anyone or anything
but you
Losing weight and gaining it back,
'til you show me
your devotion again
telling me you love me
fitting me in,
smoothing things over,
I am happy....
for the moment.
Then I picture you
with that woman'and the lies you've told
since you say you'll never leave me,
I guess,....
I have to leave you
or I will
forever be
your victim.
jazzymoonchild, copyright @ April 1996
so quickly
so innocently
at first
then, it was
intentional
purposefully, malicious
without thinking
or feeling
or fearing a consequence
touched me, and all senses
went
flying out the door,
all I could do
was scream
for more that is
never wanting to see you again
yet never wanting you to leave
never wanting to be the one
to call first, playing tricks
on myself to keep myself busy,
while I sit, stand and lay idle
waiting
waiting
impatiently even
to be your victim again
took my heart, but swore
you didn't mean it
made plans, and broke them,
but it was never your fault
I understand dearheart,
you are busy,
you are tired
Yet,...
I stand in the rain
watching you eat dinner
with someone else
you are smiling, she's laughing
"Watch out girl, that used to be me!"
I scream
.......yesterday, in fact
She's his next victim,
I feel sorry for her, but
I'm calling her out her name,
pure jealousy
because I want to be with you
you have power over me, can't
ear, drink, sleep or think
with anyone or anything
but you
Losing weight and gaining it back,
'til you show me
your devotion again
telling me you love me
fitting me in,
smoothing things over,
I am happy....
for the moment.
Then I picture you
with that woman'and the lies you've told
since you say you'll never leave me,
I guess,....
I have to leave you
or I will
forever be
your victim.
jazzymoonchild, copyright @ April 1996