You were supposed to love me. you were supposed to guide me caress me embrace me. Instead u treated me like it was my fault for your previous past. Like it was a right of passage for negative events leading to a cycle of fury uncertainty,unreasonable uncorrectable mistakes that were brought to my world by you. You were supposed to love me. That is the number 1 rule in the handbook from mother to son. However u did not prescribe to to the model. You choose to pass on what was given to you. A life of rage and pain centered in a pit and bordered by self doubt. It left me with an unwilligness to accept true love from a women.You were supposed to love me ,yet u were unable to. But u left me with one thing. How not to pass something on just because it was given to u. peace hotep family my first offering a little personal but i had to get it off my chest in an open form to move on.