Black Poetry : u were supposed to love me

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  1. emanuel goodman

    emanuel goodman Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    You were supposed to love me. you were supposed
    to guide me caress me embrace me. Instead u treated me
    like it was my fault for your previous past. Like it was a right
    of passage for negative events leading to a cycle of fury
    uncertainty,unreasonable uncorrectable mistakes that were
    brought to my world by you. You were supposed to love me.
    That is the number 1 rule in the handbook from mother to son.
    However u did not prescribe to to the model. You choose to
    pass on what was given to you. A life of rage and pain
    centered in a pit and bordered by self doubt. It left me with an
    unwilligness to accept true love from a women.You were
    supposed to love me ,yet u were unable to. But u left me with one
    thing. How not to pass something on just because it was given to
    u. peace hotep family my first offering a little personal but i
    had to get it off my chest in an open form to move on.
     
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    I better check the birth records...you fit my description.
    Emanuel...with age comes great wisdom, knowledge and growth! ...from that comes much inner pain, the pain lingers until Forgivness replaces it!
    If life never hands you a lemon...you'll never know the joy of making leomade.
    If Love wasn't passed to your mother, she couldn't pass it to you. But we are wiser people now, we now understand, what we didn't then. If a child never goes to school, do they get punished for not knowing their A B C's ?
    Forgive..and cleanse your own heart.
    I have also learned at an early age..to love from afar.
    http://destee.com/forums/showthread.php?t=29649
    this is a very wonderful and heartfelt piece..^5 to you poet.
     
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    wow...feeling the depth of this painful pit yet i see a brighter future
     
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    Hey Brotha...

    Hey emanuel...I'm feeling your script here. No one knows exactly where love will lead them. Just as you are assured you are captain of your love-ship, surely there are strong forces actively working against your ship's destination...keep steering...Bon de la chance...:sand:
    :read:
    :picture:
     
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    Emanuel:
    This scribe brought tears to my eyes. My heart goes out to you
    and your mother. I hope and I pray that you 2 are able
    to unite as mother and son. I'm not one to give advice but this
    is a very tocuhy subject for me. You see you only have 1 mother today,
    tomorrow and forever you only have 1 so please try to make piece with her.
    I am very lucky as my mother and I are best friends and
    I love her to death and I tell her that every day. I wish this for you.
    Dont give up keep trying to reach out to her.


    queen:
    I read the piece that you mentioned
    It was totally BEAUTIFUL. But I am not \
    surprised at the words I read coming from you
    You are a beautiful person with a heart to match.

    Much luv to you both
     
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    This touched me. Just the thought of my own son feeling this way, would break my heart. It is my hope that you will come to a place where you can have some semblance of peace in this--not to say that you don't have cause to be sad. But because this will be like a heavy weight upon you until you do. I do wish you just that....peace.
     
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    Thank You

    :ilu: Thank u all for your kind words u have inspired me to share more. ps i am working on it:ilu:
     
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    U were supposed to love is a very moving and heart warming piece.
    I would like to share to give you support.



    Thank you for trusting us, for giving us an opportunity
    to walk with you, share with you and support you.

    First from the Ten Commandments. Honor thy Mother and Father.
    Your mothers generation, which is my mothers and fathers too. Had it very rough.

    My mother was born in 1929. My mother picked cotton to help her family survive and had to or was allowed by their generation to only attend school to the sixth grade. I share this just to say.

    My father got lost along the way.
    Be it one or the other. A loss of any kind can be very damaging
    to those depending on them. My mother endured the suffering more than
    any of her nine children. She taught us sacrifice. We now take very good care of her.

    My father is on his own, but much loved by everyone of us.
    For we keep GOD's commandments. We didn't experience his life.
    I know certain aspects my mother shared. It doesn't excuse his short comings.

    Just by grace of God and our keeping of his commandments.
    He receives our love, when he started to allow it, and has our honor by virtue.

    My mother isn't bitter about the physical and emotional toll he left her with.

    She taught us to forgive by forgiving our father. My father is very ill.
    I haven't seen or talked to him for years. He is so sick he can't speak, and
    when I did see him he could barely write out a note.
    My son was ten years old when they first met. I had been trying to
    introduce him to my family since my son was born. When they met.

    My father was in a wheel chair, couldn't speak, or hug my two children.
    They hugged him, seeing how proud I was of them and how much they loved
    and knew only that I loved him. He cried. Since then I know he is a better man.

    I know this from his experiences. Life can be rough on an individual,
    inflicted by those you need. some of it came from his parents and his grandfather.

    They passed on the pain.
    This what my mother taught us without knowing.
    She accomplished this by loving us.
    Not giving in and changing the love she grew up with.

    The pain as you stated stops here.

    We did it so keep strong it is possible. I want my children to love me.
    I want to share and love them. In all of us in all of our children,
    in their children.. we see the change. We have won over misunderstanding.

    We talk all of us we talk. People that know us see this.. no topic is too harsh, we work thru them.


    The Commandments of God.

    Do what you can. You do some changing too. Trust yourself. Do not be afraid to LOVE.

    Baby steps. By admitting and sharing truth and telling those you need that you do need them.

    Getting over fear is a beginning. Look at the healing. I believe you will be just fine.
    Your missing out, learn love. Trust. It can hurt but don't hurt back to win.
    For you can't give what you do not own, have or understand.

    If you desire a relationship with your mother. Tell her so. Talk and discuss, keeping
    anger and accusations out of the picture.
     
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