Black Poetry : Two men, two moods

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  1. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    one says i am miserable most of the time
    the other tells me i am the happiest person he knows
    how can they both be right?
    how can i treat two people so differently
    maybe he makes me miserable in how he:
    holds the keys to our future tightly in his pocket
    showing them to me, almost invitingly
    dangling them, jingling them
    teasingly putting them back in his pocket.
    Why did i give my power for you to use
    (although, not yet to have abused)
    but to hold it all in the palm of your hand
    seems like you love to utilize this plan
    love that you think i sit home and pyne
    i do not . . .but i am not laying down either
    i carry this child for us
    why can't you just love and trust
    make a family for her to see
    why doesn't he understand i don't want to wait and wonder
    so our child can believe you are here for her
    until you decide its too much and leave
    and selfish me is left wondering about thee
    miserable thinking what if i wasn't holding his seed
    would he undertake this same deed
    would he love me the same
    or are we just playing a game until it hurts too much
    in holding back to let this feeling go on unsustained.
    The other one he tells me he loves my smile
    that he misses me and hasn't seen me in a while
    that he is glad i am happy and he wants nothing but . . .
    friendship (yeah, right.)
    but, its easy, cause the truth comes with no surprise
    his moods are constant and i know how he flies
    in town one minute out the next
    constant stream of steady women i would have to suspect
    except . . .he tells the truth, no need to keep secrets
    everything between us is an open question
    waiting to be answered before its even asked.
    so, my words become lost in my thoughts
    which become lost to fear of actions
    instead, i sit back and wait
    for decisions from him to come through.
     
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    gempis Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    great flow

    wow, Randee, this is quite a space to be in. and I'm not so much interested in what he decides as I am in what your decision will be. peace, sistah
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    dis was whoaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
    u took it there and back
     
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    As previously mentioned by gempis, your move is even more important. Liked this flow.
     
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    very nice....
    i liked the truthfulness of this piece...
    like gempis said though....the choice is yours
    one love
    khasm
     
  6. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    i want to try and give my child
    a constant family, nothing wild
    with a father and a mother
    and in time a full blooded brother
    i want for him to run and grab my hand
    saying he wants to stand by me, be my man
    i get nothing, no emotions, whether happy or sad
    so in silence i sit more hostile than mad
    feeling your here more to be a man
    to prove you won't be like yours who ran
    a child can survive with two living apart
    but together when its not in your heart
    is no way either of us should live
    so tonight while we put together this crib
    maybe we can talk honesty about what we expect
    cause i am sick of being the #1 suspect
    holding onto words afraid to say what we need to hear
    our child will always have a mother and a father, for that don't fear.
     
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    i am really feeling you on this...but please, don't wait too long for him. you have a life to live too. it's enough your life revolves around the child you carry, don't let it revolve around him too. this flow was really tight and i've been here, not with the child but HERE all the same. much love to you.
     
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    Sista...I echo the Love of the family...your hearts decision is in my prayers
    :grouphug: