trapped in a place with no bars or guards but I can leave as easily as I can fly away locked in solitude and bound by my own weakness I should have never allowed her in my life, now she has a vice grip on me like a pair of pliers I try to leave her alone but she keeps calling out to me always around me, her strong scent finding its way into my nostrils her loving embrace reaching out to me, gently curling and wafting around the room I see other men put their mouth on you and get jealous. I miss our quiet nights alone I miss you soothing my mind when im stressed but you're a trap!!! for those few moments of relief, im paying the price of my life im stuck in a rut and you are keeping me from climbing out why do I feel like I need you? you only comfort me for a couple hours at a time... you cost too much money... you're denying me the chance to do something with myself.. and you make me feel I need you.... when I really don’t I always thought I could just walk away when ready, but it's not that easy I made you a part of me, we made a bond you've always been loyal to me, but in your loyalty is deceit... making me feel good when im really doing bad always standing by me...even when I do the WRONG thing giving me strength to kill off my emotions... keeping hope alive while pushing me further into the tunnel you lie and give a false sense of reality, but I still crave you.. I NEED to find a replacement, a positive to cancel your negative true...you make me not give a **** about anything.... but is that a good thing? I thought it was but now im not sure. you're keeping me from pursuing my dream and that’s all I need to see I will never stop trying to quit weed now.... Derrick H.