Finished??? Have you explained to your eight year old why I am no longer there? Why her once Home has been reduced to a house, and why her father is a no good louse? Have you explained to your daughter how you beat someone elses child? Have you told her how after raising and loving you both for six years you tore me apart, raised your fists to me and brought me to tears. She saw the police car pull up (an escort into my own house?) Alarmed, they looked at me, I wasn't taking "my" child too. With tears in my eyes I had to explain that legally she only belonged to you. If your aim was to hurt me, punching me would do, why don't you choke me like last time, that seemed to pull you through. But, remove her from my life, Because I won't stay in our hell and play your wife? I knew leaving you would be hard But I didn't think it would be her fortune you would willingly discard All out of spite, anger and bitter resentment. Be careful with her, you'll breed contentment. Her and I feel eachother as close as a "mother" and child could be for six years I took care of her before you put your hands on me and now look at what she has to see me, packing bags with tears in my eyes not crying over you and your endless lies but whats going to happen to her when she cries who will be there to hold her hand and rub her back what will happen if there are things she lacks. And six months later she's back. He can't manage and I am glad for that fact. She looks okay (as i recount toes and fingers) my thoughts continue to linger. what if he wants to take her back in a year or two the courts won't assist, lawyers won't do don't think i haven't considered running away packing her up and fleeing astray making her change her name pretending that this is all a game but now I am thinking about my belly and my own little guy with two ragged breaths i begin to cry this life I lead does not seems fair especially when all i've done for her is care i know the truth, she will stay with me until he decides how his and her life can coincide in the meantime it is me who will provide. Controlling my life with hers again, using her like a pawn but i will be here for her for a million dawns so as i run my hands through her new homemade curls i let her know i will be her for her whenever life unfurls.