Scared to write afraid of what might spill out. Could be freeing, but could be mortifying. Might just put my foot in better just stop typing before I begin to feel exactly the same emotions that got me into this fix to begin with. It is not easy to rethink and question every line especially with feelings like mine easy hurt, heart on my sleeve want to express it, but can't, hard to believe it has come to this, but it has. I just can't write, don't want to feel, try as I might I just can't deal with these feelings they're just too real, they're just too deep.