In my mind...I sometimes find my self con~fused caught up in a muse of affections bleeding from external inflictions addictions contra~dick tions do I dare mention... failed attempts at sexual healin'? My mind needs to be freed of the sexual greed...I need to feel that mass between my knees See, why you teasin' me? push it up to the tip of my phat lips thrust the mass high til' I release a cry... I'm crying due to the internal pain not from the mass but from the guilt and shame BUT... feels so good I can't quit...****! Con~fused caught up in this muse of affections bleeding from internal inflictions addictions contra~dick tions A nymph? Just neglected? To sex or not to sex? Want to do the right thing in the eyes of God but... oooooooohh how I'd love to ride that rod!! Feelin' you press up against my abdomen Got me singin' and prayin' ~~~~~~~~~AMEN!!~~~~~~~~~~~ Unfortunately...these thoughts are only in my mind. reality has struck me can't find a man to stroke me (even when I try) Maybe it's just not meant to be cause he's CLOSER That God sent man who'll love me thoroughly. (c)2001EssenceofAminata all rights reserved I have to admit that lately I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. I've got many relationship/intimacy issues (or lack thereof) that I can't write about them. So, I find myself at a point where for the time being I'll be reposting. For those who are familiar please bear with me and for those who will read them for the first time enjoy. I'm just trying to regain control of ME. Please pray that God take away the lonliness.