Black Poetry : Tired of being played for seconds

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  1. krazelyricks

    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Dear Fred,

    I remember the first time I seen your eyes
    It just so pure of truth that I wanted you to be mine's
    Mine's
    Mine's
    Mine's
    Yes, wouldn't that be nice? But you could never be mine's
    Because no matter how many times
    You ALWAYS went back to her........
    Her, your wife, oh how I despise her
    Because she got there before I did, oh how I want to be her
    "I want to be with you forever." That's what you said
    However, it was the opposite of what you did
    I feel so stupid
    Loving another woman's property
    A man who did nothing for me
    But break my heart so bitterly
    Break offs and Come ons, constantly
    Oh, why can't me lips say what I want them to say consistently
    I want to say no, but all there is is yes, I need someone to teach me
    How to love a man who can REALLY be with me
    Because I'm tired of being played for seconds

    Your house is not a home
    That's what you told me but you still left me alone
    As I set by the phone
    Waiting for your call but you neva came, only roamed
    Enough to get a quickie
    And make love to me
    "My wife doesn't love me."
    Well, why did you leave me?
    I feel so dryly
    As you talk to me
    Telling you love me when you just wanted **** me
    "But I want to be with you baby"
    Well, why did you not marry me?
    Why did you go back home to the same lady?
    Not me.
    "Because the process can not be done so simply."
    Then leave me........
    Alone.
    Because I'm getting tired of being played for seconds.

    Friday night dates
    Pretend life mates
    While the divorce waits
    And makes
    Me bitter by the day, years, decades
    I wait
    Pretending you truly do love me, it's fate
    But it ain't even though she knows about me, I hate
    She called my house several times looking for you to come home
    And you came, leaving me alone
    I wondered if you were giving her the same lines as me
    "Baby, she's a nobody to me. Just another lady lonely."
    I wonders does this lady feel like me?
    Does she cry on her pillow because you're with me?
    Does she secretly wish to meet me?
    Does this lady wish the death of me?
    I wondered
    Did she talk to you about leaving me?
    Did she make love to you just to make you stay?
    But still you walks away
    I wonder
    Because I'm getting tired of being played for seconds.

    How can one man
    Cause so much pain
    Now, there's a baby in the blind
    A innocent child with no real father in the blind
    I wonder did I commit a sin
    By dipping in someone else's gin
    A man I knew would not bind
    On his marriage to take care of his own kid
    I wonder if you can sleep well at night wondering about your kid?
    About the child and what you did?
    The sin that you committed?
    Do you sleep
    While I weep
    I want to know because I can't sleep
    Because I'm getting tired of being played for seconds

    Fights and arguments become regular
    And I want to step to her
    But you hold me back, I would rather
    Get to you and slaughter
    But you say you love me, not her
    Once again, I'm better
    But why can't I gather
    Enough evidence in my mind on whether
    You love me really or rather
    Just sex me regular
    I want to know if I'm just a mistress or someone you want to go even farther
    Because you are my son's father

    Just when I think everything is going to get better you disappear
    I ask your wife if you are near
    And she acts as if she can't hear
    What's the deal, dear?
    I fear
    That you don't want to be with me any farther?
    Then one day you mistakingly answer the phone
    That when you tell me. "Fredrick is not mine's. Leave me the hell alone!"
    I slam down the phone
    And I roam
    My home
    Looking for something to say to myself that would make me come
    To a definite decision on whether of not to do it
    "I can't take this ****!"
    I say to myself and I take the knife to my wrist and split
    Thank god I was lit
    Because I didn't even hear my son as he had a crying fit

    "I'm sorry son, I only did it because I was tired of being played for seconds, Mama loves you and I meant it."
    As for you, well I'm sorry that I did something with you that was forbidded
    I wish I could take it back but I can't so I will meet the heavenly father and explain to him why I did it
    I will tell him it was because you told me you loved me
    Because you said you wanted to be with me
    And because you said you would marry me
    Then you dumped me
    I'm sorry
    If I caused you and your wife any pain Fred
    But it wasn't like I MADE you sleep in my bed
    It was the choice you made
    And if you're reading this, then you know the choice I made
    Fred, I love you baby and I hope you take this burdden with you to your grave


    Love,
    The mistress you neva love
     
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    i hear ya on dis one

    guess it's time u move on coz seem like one
    will never get it on right leaving u at night :nono:
    going to that broken home forgetting where
    one true love roam :nono: i feel ya
     
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    wheeew!!!! lil sis this was deep...time to lose him he aint no good...
    flow it and release it!!!! this says alot!!!! tight drop indeed

    Peace
    Angel
     
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    gurl...this was some real ish right here...

    "Your house is not a home
    That's what you told me but you still left me alone
    As I set by the phone
    Waiting for your call but you neva came, only roamed
    Enough to get a quickie
    And make love to me
    "My wife doesn't love me."
    Well, why did you leave me?
    I feel so dryly
    As you talk to me
    Telling you love me when you just wanted **** me
    "But I want to be with you baby"
    Well, why did you not marry me?
    Why did you go back home to the same lady?
    Not me.
    "Because the process can not be done so simply."
    Then leave me........
    Alone.
    Because I'm getting tired of being played for seconds."

    totally feeling your flow...two thumbs up for this...
    one love
    khasm
     
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    gempis Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This is intense, girl. You really turned the situation over in your hand, analyzed it and made it your own. Daps 4 this.
     
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    Don't play second fiddle when you deserve to be front and center. This piece made the "other woman" sound like a human being, not just a selfish female. Great write, you never disappoint.
     
  7. krazelyricks

    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thank fam for feeling this. I'm glad ya'll liked it. Soon I will be making one from the wife's side to Fred.
     
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    it held me...from beginning to end...first laughing, then getting angry, then feeling sadness for you...wanting to scream...read your poem..your answers are in there..
    areally wonderful flow...
     
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    Three words!!!!!

    Awesome!!! Outstanding!!! Magnificent!!!!

    Looking forward to the wife point of view!!

    :jumping: :jumping: :jumping: :jumping:
     
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    this reminds me of these lyrics...

    your love will never really be mine
    your time will never really be mine
    the ring will never really be mine
    all I can do is hope and pray
    and hold on to what you say and believe
    hoping one day that you will leave
    but deep inside I've come to realize
    your love will never really be mine


    Little Sister...I've said it before
    the World is waiting for you...."Writer"
    you will be known...your writing is unfathomable
    at times...that you have the ability to write from perspectives
    and through the eyes of those many, many, years
    your senior...

    Awesome...Awesome... Awesome...

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