When I first started dating I was into older men. I only dated people from 20 to 24 because I thought they were better in tuned with my maturity level but that didn't work. After one failed relationship after another I decided that I would try what I should have tried from the start, my own age, and that is just what I did. I decided to go with this real nice boy named Ryan. Ryan is a very smart man. Shoot, he's real smart. He makes me feel so warm inside. So warm that I almost went THERE with him on a few occasions but decided against it because I knew going there would get me caught up and I just wasn't ready for that yet. He's not popular but he's laid back and cool to me. He buys me any and everything I want. His daddy works for IBM so he has a little change to spend on me. I'm even part of his family. His mama and daddy adore me, as do mine. It's cool finally being with someone that compatible with you on different levels and you're never in fear of them telling your business. I feel as if he's in tact with me mentally and physically. The only problem is, he thinks he knows EVERYTHING!!! And I don't think that's going to work because I'm always used to being on top, I'm a Aries. That's how we Aries do. Shoot, my grade point average is WAY higher than his. He always wants to be competitive at everything we do. Plus, his breath stinks. Everytime we kiss I smell his breath. Ewwwww.... I can only deal with him on the weekends. We attend different schools. Which is good because I can have a little breathing room. Being in different schools is also bad too. I've started another relationship with another boy. His name is Frank. We're the SAME age but I'm in the TWELFTH and he's in the NINTH. When people look at us they say I'm crazy to even consider him a possibility but he also makes me feel good inside. He's the star football player but there's so many troubles that comes along with him. He's been locked up for being a watchout man for a rape at a party. He said that he wasn't and I can only take his word but I don't know sometimes. He went with a girl in one of my AP classes and she looks at me crazy while we're in class. He says that he only went with her for a week and he broke up with her. He said that's why she's mad. But I don't like the tension that he has brought between me and the girl in my class. And to top it off he got suspended Friday for fighting. He got nine days and he calls me in class as if I'm suppose to talk to him in the middle of class. He's a headache, yes, but he's very compassionate and he makes me feel so so so good. However, I feel as if he doesn't fit into my repetoire except that he's popular. He said "I love you.", something that the other one never even mentioned last week. He said that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. I thought that by having him near me twenty four seven was cute at first but now it's down right SMOOTHERING. I know that there is a lot of drama that goes along with him but I feel as if we have SOMETHING in common that makes me look at him differently than everybody else. I don't know, maybe it's that good girl bad boy thing. Shoot, I don't know. All I know is I need help. I know I need to let one of them go. It's h*ll joggling two relationships. One is compasionate, sweet, and gentle. The other is capassionate, sweet, and a little rough around the edges. Aw, what should I do? I know this is long but I wanted you to know my thoughts and feelings about each and every one of them before you judged them. Please, if you can, help me sort this thing out.