Faint whisps of colour dart around your face, A distant image emerging from the darkness, Flashing in my mind as I remember, All the things you said and did, All the ways your hurt me, Plunging a dagger deep in to my soul, And yet still I said sorry. Weak and frail, I begged and pleaded, Destroying myself in my attempts to survive. Breaking down and crying in front of you, Yet your eyes were black like the night; Cold and uncaring. You walked on; ignoring the pitiful sight before you. Never knowing what you did until the fear; It grasped me tight around the heart, Shaking me, throttling me until I fought to breathe, Yet you found it to be a lie, Disbelieving me with two-faced comforts. You helped me, yet at the same time caused more damage. I could not face you; scared of what I'd find in the eyes, I cowered, running, fleeing and panicking; Breaking down with anxiety and pain, A daily event; for I saw you often, And it contributed to the death of my spirit, Untill I couldn't take it; So I took the pills, Unperscribed yet I thought they would save me, Something you'd never done. Crying and screaming when I failed, I broke down again, my word crumbling beneath my feet, What were you doing to me? I begged for help, falling low at your merciless feet, Yet you stamped hard on my hands, Crushing my fingers before kicking me away; You'd had enough, But so had I; I tried again and again, each time to be beaten, Untill I couldn't try anymore, And the angst grew too strong; My constant thoughts of you devoured me, And I wrote down some feeble words, Determined to get them to you; To make you see. I needed the horror in your eyes, And the dreaded realisation, Before I let the blood drip from my wrist. You saw. You hurt. I suceeded, Yet I survived, destorying the careful layout. I didn't mean to; messed up timing, It all went so deadly wrong, yet no one died. Not this time; you're already weak, Although I can't deny I'm weaker, Still holding on to what isn't there, I'm destined to fall; Will you push me or kick me like before? It seems you wil; you too can't take this. This way can be closure for us all, So let me just say, in finality the words I need you to hear: Goodbye.