you want the truth, i love you and all you do and make me feel as night after night you hold me near. i nearly choke on tears as you tell me sweet things i need to hear the most beautiful amazing thing is i trust in all you say and do. let me finish though. . . i still speak to T too - but our time was over before it even began friends first, lovers last nothing that one sided should ever come that fast you know its me who calls him, can't seem to let go I know he wants to hit it but what i don't let show is how i miss his thug hardness and all the efforts and airs when underneath it all he has a heart that just might care. i'm finished and now you have all sorts of things to spit and say on how and what makes me act this way. while your analyzing my every move, i'm wondering why i even try when it's so blatant i'm gonna lose. so, at least with T i knew where i stood his kids came first his dedication to the hood then his game but with you all there is is me and you with you I am number one and I'm number two can't handle the quiet quite the same no children running around asking for isht no man lounging waiting for whatever his fix no distractions or actions your taking without giving never seems to happen so, the truth, after all this was said and done i'm scared to death i don't want to run but what if you decide you don't want me.