Black Positive People : The "One": Relationship

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I use to find myself wondering when is she going to come? What would she look like and how well can she hang as being One and the "one". Well as soon as I look into myself to find Me as I, then I started to find commonalities with individuals like a certain type of atmosphere you know?

Since I am a free spirited person, ideally it would be great to attract the opposite with the same free spirited soul drive and emotional push plus high thought process and physical intensification of our purpose. Is she here? Well let's just say this...have I found a person full of life who came out of the blaq circle of life? Nope. You have to find true attraction and not a forced one of standards creating a product-like feel between two individuals. Let's say if a couple were walking around in the shopping mall, this vibrant blaq female walked passed you two and smiles at the guy. Now this guy could be the guy behind the couple or to the left, right or just in her mind with earphones on listening to a lecture about "how to be free" from her ipod. But the female of the couple looks at the dude and the female walking pass them as if something is going but in reality insecurity is showing itself majorly with a slight hint of paranoia. Well can you blame the female who is checking out the both of them? After all she did set herself up to be a standard rather than a butterfly full of life with vibrant feats without showing it off; it's an aura aspect. So that female who sets herself up to be a product is in constant competition whether she knows it or not, and fore what reason? Some may say low self-esteem and the similar of various degrees but what it really comes down to is she do not know thyself.

I use to be down with blaq females like this and whenever I use to introduce a type of escape out of the controlling atmosphere like bike riding, walking, running together while talking, rollerskating, and so forth she would take it as if "somebody is not interest enough in her" but what is really happening she don't want to participate in unity as she has been surrounded by depression, sorrow, and etc fore most of her life that it is unbelievable I would want to share a deeper page in our lives for nothing other than love. This is complex as most of the time her homegirls are not doing the same so she might feel like a wedge is being pushed between her and the sisterhood. It is called distant peer pressure. When nobody is around to validate it is okay to be you with your King and so she is unsure and wants him to lead, even if it is in vain so to speak. to be continued....

by: Nefertum Husia Shayheh from the book BLAQ LOVE: Conversation Fore Two

 

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Many of my relationships had been religious so to speak. I use to meet traditional blaq american christian females who was raised by their mother of the same traditional thinking. When it came to having fun, fun was limited based on the scriptures of how she viewed it but unlike me I expanded outside the bible to bring more of a lively sky across the atmosphere rather than a lingering "a devil or demon might be on the loose" atmosphere you know? I didn't focus on the devil nor satan but rather of a future progress of how pastures can be greener with the proper tilling of thought process, love, soul and spirit. Now once I started to fuse this into the relationship a power struggle over whether Jesus is in the whole process cause I had to say the word "Jesus Christ" in almost ever sentence to include sometime in bed. And I use to always ponder and just wonder, when will she give me some credit for actually waking up in the morning, going to work for somebody else besides ourselves, cause she or they use to be very speculating when doing for self as if the devil is going to set you up (but if you have a plan thought out through and through then what could go wrong? it's like she didn't believe in me nor the relationship but Jesus, though i believed her), helping her kids with their work and being a solid father figure while the kids' fathers visit over trying to get back with them often after they found out somebody is there for their kids and actually taking care of the mutha! The situations I use to put myself in knowing that it would not work out all because I wasn't magically there and the religion was. It was almost like I was invisible but only visible when the money and sex came into play, and as a scapegoat of course cause man created this stuff as she spoke it coming from God herself. God never spoke to me but always through her or Jesus Christ always spoke to her but never me. So all in all, I was just a man who if I didn't do as she said, then the devil had got into me and never her. There was no way the devil got into her at all or satan or a demon. And she could even tell me more about a demon, satan, devil than God as prescribed as a male tense, himself! Whether God was Jesus Christ, her, the devil or whatever, I just got tired of it as it sounded like the same ole stuff when I was a kid. And those images of Jesus Christ as a white guy on a piece of carpet or elongated paper came back in front of my memories, regardless if he was a blaq man or not, but these Sisters picked and choose when he was a man or not and when he was God based on the power struggle and how they was taught. And there was no arguing around it cause after all, if they were to be pregnant then by man's law I would had been up dookie creek without a paddle. Funny how man created madness and she defies it just to turn around and sue me with man's law and read from a man-made revision Bible! But I'm not a worthy contender of high praise and worship as she...and you will never find her saying she is not worthy nor disagreeing with you if you give her praise. to be continue....

by: Nefertum Husia Shayheh from the book BLAQ LOVE: Conversation Fore Two

 

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What was really happening is "hidden polygamy" within her, meaning she was still connected spiritually to the previous men or man of their children but not fully acknowledging the "african way" of polygamy for the benefit of the community as a people. This is how domestic violence often start up, divorce, separations, mistrust and the likes. Females by nature are more sexually active but pose as the opposite attracting the opposite within them as a "sorta game". Whenever she wants to reinvent herself or recreate herself out of healing or these days desperation then she will draw on these divine power called the law of attraction and Opposites...and to kinda get a picture these females know how much power they have and when to exercise it to their advantage. Some don't and often run into a religion to structure their mindsets as a "control mechanism" but how long before the urge to let loose begins? Depending on the days and nights within time and space.

Now if I were to roll with the african way of polygamy then I would have been a devil or some sort of freak or something but indeed she was practicing the way. Reason why most of the individuals who participate in this often hide is because of biblical verses, entertainment has made keeping a secret really to yourself now cause things get blown out of proportion these days evolving not who anyone expected. As a people, we tend to create secrets out of fear and not knowing thyself or our own culture to be free to do us rather than pleasing society as deemed european.

The average blaq female and male is pretty much trapped inside their own prison cause of disharmony, fears over love, deep seated anger, graves of sorrow always dug up, and happiness in a land where no one exist--fantasies. We are all victims one way or the other unless you know thyself and get out of the circle we call insanity. Yes I had to become One instead of looking for the "One". I ditched all of those religious relationships and dogmatic transactions to be free and love myself as the powers to be graces divinity fore all whether we see it or not they are there all around us. I wish I could have had a more deep seated conversation with those blaq females about reproducing with multiple fathers to include myself and just say it is alright you know? Cause only God can judge you if that is what you believe in. Just make sure you choose the right fathers who you know is going to come back or continuously take care of you and the children nonstop plus you keep abreast of yourself with dignity, pride, intelligence, beauty and the likes. When you let yourself down then do not expect no one to pick you back up. In these days and nights of time, people are counting on failures by watching you fall to your knees and hands. And every last of these children are legitimate and genius with every righteous intention so they are not bastards or whatever; you just got to keep at work with them and never give up. Sometime I use to kind of "hint" this to these females but even they were insecure emotionally and often thought irrationally making life as we know to be easy even harder on themselves. Now til this day, many females are still questioning who is the "one"? When you come up with ah plan fore the future and not temp, he breezes by with a conversation of the same...maybe you want to take a stroll with him to envision together and input your thoughts too by releasing reign as equal partners and watch how the both of you flow on like a river of true love rather than a date. Dates are day and nights...rivers flow out from the largest mouths and bodies of water who are still. Watch who you are crossing and speak instead of creating a stone wall...it's fine to be a lover but control the degree of love to make sure it isn't lust of just sexual pleasures and greed of power. to be continued...

by: Nefertum Husia Shayheh from the book BLAQ LOVE: Conversation Fore Two

 

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And for the ones who wants a "mono" relationship and has children or one, then you just got to let whoever is the father figure in real time adopt that child or children as his and yours. After all, he is his brothers' keeper right? So emotionally we are all the same but many cannot depart with past loves which keep them bound up with other brothers in the spiritual realm (everything is spiritual too) constantly sending signals to him without knowing like ip packet data from one node to the next depending on whether you are sleep or active. It is called the human internet and this is how the internet of today is made. When you power on the box then information is automatically sent rather you realize it or not and so when the box is powered down or when the power grid is down then everything is not recognized. Now imagine after being healed or saved, from the previous or past? Everything that was hindering is now gone or deleted and unable to connect to your network cause now you have a different network key! Powerful isn't it? See he or she had the network key and we often wonder how are they coming back time and time again...the key to your network.

Being mono with kids takes one to stop "fence riding"...you have to let go or just be prepared to let him or her adopt with or without paperwork cause if you keep the drama on-going, then these kids will surely pick up on it and try it when they grow up. Now if I'm wrong let me be struck down with lightning right now...you know? It's either one way or the other doing both is hurting all parties and most blaq females have to learn how to love openly and not when they "want" to love. Love is limitless so when get past to overstand yourself then you can love your brother-kid's father as One as a people as a whole and still be with the love of your life who might be their for you personally as a mending soul while the kid's father remain in their lives with you minus the personal aspect. Have to forgive all around in order to let love in. For those who are without kids? Just be yourself to go limitless as brothers and sisters are worldwide. Be a real King and Queen on board to further progression into an Emperess and Emperor....to be continue

by: Nefertum Husia Shayheh from the book BLAQ LOVE: Conversation Fore Two

 

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Lovers and communication....is the same or one lead to the other or complexities? Well, fore some added reason being a Gemini is great but at the same time dayum near cursed. You know you center yourself as communication within the blaq dendera circle right? Love is a constant give and receive therefore approaching love as limitless but on earth conditional depending on the conditions of the situation; hence complexities. Love is a tangle web we weave believing in what we see and sea from the C as the seven plus one sown we can make it to heaven. But there is a higher level than that and of across many facets to match plus opposites to attract! So being a lover isn't easy as you have to set down your own personal agenda to receive information and give out the stored data as common language to the receiptant. For example, a Russian person may not understand a Japanese person so it is up to me to translate into a common language with righteous thought process rather than personal ego process. This is why everybody is not for you when first crossing at sight...one should always ask themselves this question "Why is he or she in my life at this moment and fore however long?" As a communication specialist for the higher powers to be, I listen closely without ears by concentrating emotionally on a soulful note spiritually. So when the next note is ready to be caught, I produce the sound the ears is waiting fore or dissonance the message to create another suspension in time and space enough to gradually build up energies of resonance with melodies who fight resistance's army with love. Defeat after defeat is the outcome...okay enough of the theatrics. So it is very possible to know everyone at one time due to us acting as a router, switch, nic and so forth of real communication power. Blaq females love an individual who is a totally lover and understands the universe a total mimicking of their every emotional thought pattern. Blaq females often have a strong sense of denial of love attracting a strong sense of aggression like a music chord amplifying energies up. She tests love like a rubberband strength to see how far can you last before break and if you break can you put yourself back together. Many of them want peace, some drama, several empathy, few lust, and one righteousness out of trillions of stars. Wow what a glow and zenith to imagine....Being a lover is not easy cause you know no boundaries and understand why you was manifested to move soulfully at a certain time in space. So when I use to approach a female with realness like "I Love You" they would be curious and really relieved but scared yet interested and happy! Emotional that is isn't it? But how can anyone deny that they manifested or talk up love and one appear in the form of it with love to spare and give continuously just to reject them and run away? How krazy that sounds? Well I use to ask my moms and others about this and they would just laugh or smile and be like "those women do not know what they want...they speak it and you appear then they can't walk the talk cause it was all a game of how many i can pull with one clutch"

Some blaq women say that want love or need it but really cannot handle it...probably would go krazy jealous or whatever; just being real cause one have to be healed of all impurities first to receive and give. Love also frees up the truth and cover up lies as we create them. So fore many blaq females they rather lust than love cause lust they know of it well and dwell in it daily and nightly like anybody. Real love to the core hitting your heart beating faster than expected is like a danger sign or red flag to them in a great way cause they never had real love before so they gone test it to the extreme and depending on the person of how well they will take it the extreme...so they run run run and keeping running and keeping fighting until they are defeated in a wonderful loving way. This takes tremendous endurance, stamina, wisdom, strength, intelligence, soul, spirit and emotional stability once game is on. Whether they say it is a game or not, it is still a game until they rise up out of the earth layer of the tree. But when you stop chasing as two to become One with yourself, then the cat is left looking around like what happen??? to be continued....

by: Nefertum Husia Shayheh from the book BLAQ LOVE: Conversation Fore Two