There is a tiny part of me
that holds a hint of jealousy
I treat it as a fallacy
but it has become a part of me
I'm nervous it will dominate
and this hint will slowly procreate
to a full grown fear of lies and deception
my confidence won't be my protection
I'll isolate myself and think my own thoughts
and they will burn in me and I'll fall apart
and he won't see that I am broken
and the fear will be a word between us unspoken
So I'll have my twisted assumptions
and it will cause "forever" disruptions
I'll want to put in trust
I'll want to believe
but the fear of rejection
will stay sewn on my sleeve
it won't leave
it will be a constant
the fear will make me despondent
make me long to end the painful ride
make me contemplate suicide
and all the while from him I'll hide....
the fear.
that holds a hint of jealousy
I treat it as a fallacy
but it has become a part of me
I'm nervous it will dominate
and this hint will slowly procreate
to a full grown fear of lies and deception
my confidence won't be my protection
I'll isolate myself and think my own thoughts
and they will burn in me and I'll fall apart
and he won't see that I am broken
and the fear will be a word between us unspoken
So I'll have my twisted assumptions
and it will cause "forever" disruptions
I'll want to put in trust
I'll want to believe
but the fear of rejection
will stay sewn on my sleeve
it won't leave
it will be a constant
the fear will make me despondent
make me long to end the painful ride
make me contemplate suicide
and all the while from him I'll hide....
the fear.