- Dec 6, 2005
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I am so happy that you had the spirit, the manhood, to make this kind of declaration about what has happened to you, betrayal, is hard to face. But you've faced it, you've manned up! Wow! Man! Props to you, and I hope this same inner power that you have will continue in you to be able to reach out to others that have salt and can help you deal with this betrayal and overcome the pain of such disrespect. I don't what I would do, if this happened to me but I would know that I would need help. Breaking a contract of trust is a dangerous thing though and no matter how much you hurt, I hope you keep going because I believe you will be vindicated.
Nobodies perfect, but breaking contracts of trust, has an end. I feel more sorry for the othr man that moved in on your peace than for you right now, though. Unfortunately, people who don't regard other people with respect will pay a dear price, and no matter what you think you could have done, you cannot have gone back in time and prevented that, so I hope you don't blame yourself for someone else faults. Try to look at the bigger picture, human nature. Continue to hold onto values that make you an humanitarian, and you will get through this, that is my prayer and my hope. Peace.
I guess I'm just hurt so badly because of the betrayal. I had an affair with a married woman when I was 17, but even then it felt so wrong. I ended it and have never been that route again. I just kept wondering how I would feel as her husband if it was me. Sure, it felt good and all, but in the end, it still was wrong no matter how nice it felt. And in my marriage, I had the sense to stop anything before it had a chance to develop, even with a couple members of her family. I would not let anyone get close enough to me if I felt they were trying to have a relationship with me, online and in the real world. It just wasn't worth the outcome of destroying my family over.
And yet, here I am. That's why I have begun to wonder about doing the right thing, even though I know in the end I know I have to continue to do it.
I also know that now, I'm thinking and speaking from a dark place, that things now are clouded by my emotions. It's just that knowing that doesn't make it hurt any less.