Black Poetry : SUICIDE... IS NOT AN OPTION... BY YOUR SELF

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  1. HODEE

    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Sometimes you feel ​

    By yourself

    You have someone in your life and still
    By yourself

    Many friends to talk with
    Many folks all around
    In a crowd in reality never alone
    Feeling by yourself

    Feeling by yourself

    It may seem no one understands
    It is human nature to feel alone
    Seems difficult to continue it gets
    Hard to stand
    By yourself

    Enjoy your love's attention
    Put your worries aside

    Don’t linger in the negative
    Someone is by your side

    Love is in your favor
    Strong bonds are everywhere
    Between you and your romantic partner
    No reason to feel
    By yourself

    THIS WRITE IS INSPIRED BY THIS ARTIST. PHYLLIS LINDA HYMAN

     
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    very enlightening

    if you feel you're by yourself when you're with someone then you need to move on what are you gettin' out of it? i've heard alot of this lately
    what's going on out there?

    i agree with you if you're with someone you're in it together

    you should never feel alone

    i appreciate the insight here

    you can post your video you have to do it in the open forum or the entertainment section you and should see where you can embed YOUTUBE videos

    peace Bro. HODEE
     
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    cocobutterskyn Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    IMO those two lines hold great advice.
    Reach out, it may not even be someone
    you know... kind strangers can save lives too.

    You creating such a caring poem is proof.

    This is very touching for me,
    I lost a cousin to suicide last year.

    That is my favorite song of hers.

    Thanks for sharing this with us.


    Be Blessed!


    MaddSistahlyLove!
    Coco:heart:
     
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    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks for the read So'ja

    Da Street So'ja

    " if you feel you're by yourself when you're with someone then you need to move on what are you gettin' out of it? "

    This statement is so true.



    You can be married and your partner abandons you.
    In a relationship, one shouldn't abandon the relationship because it hit a trouble period.

    You can have a partner in any relationship you care deeply about, but they just don't seems to get it.

    They seem to never come around into, or having any time or concern for growing or making the thing work.
    They have issues with being in a committed time venture of any sort or being in a relationship.

    Where we do agree is no one should stay in a relationship where you aren't loved
    or where the other person continuously takes you for granted.


    Tell me now if you were in a relationship and you just aren't being understood.

    Wouldn't that qualify for being with someone and being all by yourself?
     
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    First, I will say that I am very sorry to hear about coco's cousin....truly sad indeed....

    Hodee....I thank you from the bottom of my heart, for you piece here. And the youtube clip just solidified the meaning.....that is one bad broad! Whistling...wow, special! ( I could have done without, the part about corns!)


    Thank you for sharing, for I truly know, and have written about, how it is to be alone while with someone...just going thru the motions until one day....bang! it hit's you... that you just dont want this life anymore.
     
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    cocobutterskyn

    It is very important when someone is troubled they should reach out. You have my deepest sympathy. You be blessed as well.
     
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    Hello sweet..
    You leave her corns alone... Those corns are testiment to a hard road in life.
    I saw her in Oakland in the eighty's and I stood below the stage looking at her long beautiful 12's.. maybe tens.. but they were hers.
     
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    HODEE is accepting CORNS.. :slingshot only on woman's feet.
     
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    Sister coco, I'm sorry to hear of that, my condolences.
    There is nothing like the lonelines of being with someone and still being alone. Problems arise, but if you love someone, don't you at least try to remedy them? Feeling this write brother poet.
     
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    Depression and Bi-Polar Disorders

    Phyllis Hyman :bye:died of suicide.
    She suffered from bi-polar disorder.

    Phyllis Hyman

    Was a phenomenal woman
    Battled with Bi-Polar Disorder
    This disease is like a storm in the brain.


    She had a special man in her life
    He didn’t want to marry nor have children

    She did say in an interview he helped her so much

    ==============================

    What we have to do now as African Americans is take a look at how serious we are enthralled and gripped by depression.

    Here are two sites I want to share. One is from children...look closely at this one.. it speaks volumes.

    Kids and Mood Disorders
    (Bipolar Disorder and Depression)

    http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=about_publications_storm

    Understanding Bipolar Disorder
    SIGNS, SYMPTOMS, and causes OF MANIC DEPRESSION

    http://www.helpguide.org/mental/bipolar_disorder_symptoms_treatment.htm

    ======================

    I want to see a healing in African Americans unlike the world has never known.

    I would like to share a personal story... I have been depressed at least twice in my life.

    My mother, or my sisters and brothers still don't know.

    It is over.. they never saw my lows.
    I knew I had to save myself and Love pulled me thru.
    Self love and the love of another.

    Sister cocobutterskyn you have the best understanding.
    Folks often listen to strangers and act on suggestions and solutions they give, better than they do from loved one's.


    This person remains to this day not knowing how much they helped me.
    We were and today still are strangers..

    We met briefly .. on what seemed to be my average day and it changed my life.
    I look back.. it wasn't my average day and that is probably why we met.


    I remained very productive, recognized the symptoms and did all I could from giving in to negative thoughts. I went for treatment a few times.. refused the drugs and decided.

    I love myself, I am strong. I know where I am and where I wanted to go. So I kept positive.

    My doctor explained when you go low then you consider checking out. you ponder death.

    She said if your at the bottom .. you can stay there are you can go back up to a better level.
    I didn't openly say or talk about suicide.

    I did placed my health and safely in some hairy situations that could have resulted in death. I didn't care.

    Today I better understand this swing we go thru.
    We all have a normal, that changes during the day into highs and lows.

    Some children are born low. They need drugs to help with ADD and stuff.
    Some adults drop to the lower mood level because of stress and stuff.

    Adults when streesed turn to a stimulants. Shopping, drugs etc...alcohol gives some a momentary stimulant but it is a depressant. They get the momentary high and energy from it because, their body turns the alcohol into sugar.

    My metabolizism is that way. When I escaped with alcohol... I also smoked lots of weed and cigars.

    I never lost sight that I didn't enjoy the purposely damage I was doing.
    People are cognizant of right and wrong, good and bad.

    NORMAL
    |
    |
    |
    ========= DEPRESSION =======
    |
    |
    |
    SUICIDE

    There are only a few measures ( inches ) between life and death.​



    I have five sisters and three brothers in my family.

    My oldest sister the first child in our family suffered from Bi-Polar depression

    As a family we have worked very hard to keep her balanced, what we did was
    keep talking and checking on her, assuring her she had our love and support.

    She watched as my other sisters, bought homes, and they seemed to have more money and credit.
    They were looking successful and my older sister didn't know it.
    But she was self defeating and self destructive.

    This didn’t help her condition… and she often spoke of suicide.

    We took her serious, and would tell her how we loved her, would miss her and why we needed her to stay with us.
    We would remind her of how she helped raise and protect all of us.

    We all knew what her problem was.
    She didn’t handle money well.

    Suffering from the highs and lows … often major depression and bi-polar.
    Where your highs are off the chart naturally and your lows are deep.

    My sister would buy things that made her happy for a short time. Like cars, and clothes and stuff.

    Something many African Americans will do and still do today.
    Then they wonder why they aren’t making it.
    Well clothes wear out, and the car depreciates as soon as the wheels leave the car lot.

    But my sister wouldn’t change, and she didn’t seem to hear us.

    As I got older, I figured these things out from watching and thinking it thru.
    I was able to form a better relationship with her and I was in a position
    to offer her some of the things she always fretted, was angry about and was upset about.

    I saw this and decided to change her focus and show her what home ownership was like, what having credit was like.

    So I helped her get a home, ( this house she had to qualify for thru HUD.
    The house cost her $1.00 dollar. ) She signed and got her three bedroom home.

    I had just qualified for a dollar house ( a five bedroom house ) and was blessed to get one,
    but I turned mine down… because at the time of acceptance.

    I was ( depressed and just was breaking up from a relationship ) feeling by myself. with.
    The woman I wanted to be was leaving me. Not for another guy, she lost focus or her mind.
    It was total ove on that Friday.. and by Monday she was leaving me
    for selfish reason I was told about. What could I do.. but set her free.

    We were going different directions now.
    I was at a low point and felt depressed because the love of my life was leaving me.
    That story is so weird...that woman.

    This one time I felt BY MYSELF.
    Because she didn't get that I was there for her. Only her.
    She didn't know I had us a five bedroom house.

    So I let that woman leave me.
    I sat around moping and no one ( family and freinds.. even myself I knew that wasn't me ) could stand me.
    It was not like me.

    I was working several jobs and one of them was at a furniture store.
    I filled up my sisters house with furniture, established her with credit, something she never could seem
    to master and gave her some breathing room so she didn’t have to focus on negative and material things.

    Today she is doing fine… but she can slip at any time into major depression, and possibly suicidal tendencies.

    ==============================


    As African Americans we possibly suffer heavily from Bi-polar depression more than we know.

    The symptoms are with us, I know as a people, we are usually happy, but under the surface is a depression most of the time.

    The biggest contributor is lack of income, opportunity, and advancements in life, education and careers.
    That is why I did what I did for my sister. I saw this.

    Six months later.. I gave away my car, van, all my stuff quit my jobs, and then I left Missouri ( misery behind. )
     
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