Black Poetry : Sucidal, Sucidal I am..........

[nevar]

Sucidal
Sucidal​

I just want to cut myself
cut myself

not intentionally
not physically
just emotionally​

So many times I stared at the blade
So many times I wanted to stab at you

I cant reach you
Like a wounded tiger
I lay waiting for the vultures to swarm around my lifeless body
I told you of my pain and my fears
But I felt the words I spoken was left unheard​

Am I a victim
Victim
to circumstance
Taught from birth to love each other as I do myself
Myself
Myself

Digging myself this shallow grave
I wonder if anyone will miss me
Will they miss the laughter, the cries that comes from my ripen
lips​

Why should you care?

For I have been dying since
This slow death is killing me
I cant take it anymore
I want to go to a place of peace and harmony​

Not this world of pain and misery
Misery is my company
Love, I must cut you loose

No more feeling
No more warmth from my soul
No more sun to guide me when I need quidance​

Look what you done to me
Father how can I be so blind
Your daughter has given up

I believe in your son
He told me of things I wanted to have
I believed him
But I know I should have put my trust in you Father
I didnt wait on you​

Now I'm having these sucidal thoughts

Father is it true am I destined to be alone
Is it true I will never know what true love and companionship
is like
Was I meant to give joy and see other people fulfillment thru their eyes​

Father tell me if it is your will
I'm strung out on this thing called love
I'm a junkie for love
The voice in my head say,

DO IT, DO IT, DO IT​

Nobody cares like I do
I've given you pleasures when your Heavenly Father couldnt
Take the knife and cut your bleeding, red heart​

Love isn't for you
Be cold and shady like me
Take it d@mmit cut yourself open and see if your precious Father will save you
(Pacing, pacing)
Picking up the knife (devil rubbing his hands together, tongue slithering in and out like a snake)
(Devil) YYYEESSSSSSSS!

Looking at him eyes blacker than the night sky
I became afraid
Could I cut the one thing from me to allow me to love again
Could I​

Hurry up ***** I have other damned souls to collect
He doesn't love you
Get over it
You could never have noone last name
Sucidal

Sucidal​

Sucidal

Sucidal​

to be continued.......​

copyright 2008
nevar/lavette112

 

[Destee]

Sister Nevar ... this peace is so deep ... bless your sweet heart.

This peace reminds me of one i wrote long ago ... Deep Despair

Stay encouraged Sister, hold on hold on hold on !!

Love You!



Destee

 

[nevar]

thank you for the love you have shown me Destee and I cant view your work!

 

[Destee]

thank you for the love you have shown me Destee and I cant view your work!

awwww Sister ... the link should work ... but here's the peace ...

Deep Despair

lost and afraid
mind trapped
in a rage
sinking faster
and faster
it's disaster
the hereafter
plasters
my thoughts
all the tears
have been cried
nothing left
but the ride
gotta give
up the ghost
there's no hope
use a rope
or a gun
death says
it will be fun
too weak
can't run
so i fall
in the trap
sinking faster
and faster
it's disaster
deep despair
strangling
in death's lair
when out of
no where
God is there
​

Destee

 

[Clyde C Coger Jr]

In the Spirit of Sankofa!

thank you for the love you have shown me Destee and I cant view your work!

nevar,

Hold on! You have Family here!