Black Poetry : Sucidal, Sucidal I am..........

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  1. nevar

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    Sucidal
    Sucidal​
    I just want to cut myself
    cut myself
    not intentionally
    not physically
    just emotionally​
    So many times I stared at the blade
    So many times I wanted to stab at you
    I cant reach you
    Like a wounded tiger
    I lay waiting for the vultures to swarm around my lifeless body
    I told you of my pain and my fears
    But I felt the words I spoken was left unheard​
    Am I a victim
    Victim
    to circumstance
    Taught from birth to love each other as I do myself
    Myself
    Myself
    Digging myself this shallow grave
    I wonder if anyone will miss me
    Will they miss the laughter, the cries that comes from my ripen
    lips​
    Why should you care?
    For I have been dying since
    This slow death is killing me
    I cant take it anymore
    I want to go to a place of peace and harmony​
    Not this world of pain and misery
    Misery is my company
    Love, I must cut you loose
    No more feeling
    No more warmth from my soul
    No more sun to guide me when I need quidance​
    Look what you done to me
    Father how can I be so blind
    Your daughter has given up
    I believe in your son
    He told me of things I wanted to have
    I believed him
    But I know I should have put my trust in you Father
    I didnt wait on you​
    Now I'm having these sucidal thoughts
    Father is it true am I destined to be alone
    Is it true I will never know what true love and companionship
    is like
    Was I meant to give joy and see other people fulfillment thru their eyes​
    Father tell me if it is your will
    I'm strung out on this thing called love
    I'm a junkie for love
    The voice in my head say,
    DO IT, DO IT, DO IT​
    Nobody cares like I do
    I've given you pleasures when your Heavenly Father couldnt
    Take the knife and cut your bleeding, red heart​
    Love isn't for you
    Be cold and shady like me
    Take it [email protected] cut yourself open and see if your precious Father will save you
    (Pacing, pacing)
    Picking up the knife (devil rubbing his hands together, tongue slithering in and out like a snake)
    (Devil) YYYEESSSSSSSS!
    Looking at him eyes blacker than the night sky
    I became afraid
    Could I cut the one thing from me to allow me to love again
    Could I ​
    Hurry up ***** I have other damned souls to collect
    He doesn't love you
    Get over it
    You could never have noone last name
    Sucidal
    Sucidal​
    Sucidal
    Sucidal​

    to be continued.......​

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    Sister Nevar ... this peace is so deep ... bless your sweet heart.

    This peace reminds me of one i wrote long ago ... Deep Despair

    Stay encouraged Sister, hold on hold on hold on !!

    Love You!

    :heart:

    Destee
     
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    thank you for the love you have shown me Destee and I cant view your work!:hearts4:
     
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    awwww Sister ... the link should work ... but here's the peace ...


    Deep Despair

    lost and afraid
    mind trapped
    in a rage
    sinking faster
    and faster
    it's disaster
    the hereafter
    plasters
    my thoughts
    all the tears
    have been cried
    nothing left
    but the ride
    gotta give
    up the ghost
    there's no hope
    use a rope
    or a gun
    death says
    it will be fun
    too weak
    can't run
    so i fall
    in the trap
    sinking faster
    and faster
    it's disaster
    deep despair
    strangling
    in death's lair
    when out of
    no where
    God is there

    :heart:

    Destee
     
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    In the Spirit of Sankofa!




    nevar,

    Hold on! You have Family here!

     
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    thanks Destee and thanks Clyde I hope my piece isnt decieving anyone
    I long to live just dont think i should be in love anymore......
     
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    nevar,

    I don't know about Destee, but you had me all shook, and about to have a heart attack, I am sorry!

     
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    to clyde

    I just want to cut myself
    cut myself

    not intentionally
    not physically
    just emotionally​



    hopefully this will sum it up for you!:hearts1:
     
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    nevar,

    Thank you very much! You are a very sweet young Lady, I think I'm going to have to back off from the poetry awhile, since you poets are so, so deep, until I get back into the mindset of the flow!

     
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    so what is "living" without Love??

    "long to live"?? you got the Right to do more than "longing" to live; get your Heart back to a place that knows it is more about "Determining" to Live than merely "longing" to Live!!

    :flowers: :grouphug: :hearts4:Love You! and if you can't feel these arms around you in support, know that if/when you Talk to God, i'm right there in that Crew, Loving, Supporting and Believing in YOU! :hearts4: :grouphug: :flowers:

    sure glad you reiterated that qualifying stanza; i got a bit nervous too ... and when i do that, i get kinda "upset" and "lash out" at the source of what i perceive to be the root of such despair!! 'scuse, please, for subjecting the house to, imho, "righteous wrath"!
     
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