>>> First, to all who are concerned - I am keeping my word. I checked out a poem by Shaz and Midnight son BEFORE posting this, so Destee.COM can have some reciprocity. A quality often misplaced in relationships, friendships and the like - okay, here's the piece <<<<<<<<<<<< " Substance Abuse " Nicotene in my chemistry My cigarrettes are candles & burnt nerve endings My alcohol is a blur of words remy and Alize' the day away and I write LESS poems now cuz i'm tired of lessons i should've learned slipping through my fingers. A sweaty grip on dosage - I mean horse pills of pride swallowed still throwing back shots of word bourbon ----- inside hollow throat and chess cavities Mira Aqui ! I SEE w/ eyes wide shut Ecstacy tripping leaves pupils wide open off of **** they should've learned by now. Aerosol poetry from sniffing my own graffitti trying to recognize MY MARK MY ART MY TAG My addiction IS a written prescription authorized by brain cells i've fried and nights i've cried I have CRIED nights No, I mean i have CRIED NIGHTS - I mean... tears have tried to rinse the black off my face collecting melanin - alcoholic tears leaving my pores open. high tolerance afterall -- maybe ? Family & friends thinking i'm not into binge drinking but i stay under the influence Nervous and trembling at the thought of Highs Ending so ... freebase balances tipping scales. Issue 1 failed, so my *** is off to jail and I can quit anytime I want to. I can quit anytime I want to. Kissing lips made of hemp in hot moments igniting ciphers of something nearly illegal. I can quit anytime I want to. The fire rises. Lighting the anxiously waiting tip of death. Needing a Hit has left me beaten and bruised I can quit anytime I want to. _________________________________________________ Note: If any of you know of a girl 18-25 who doesn't drink or smoke, let me know. I don't want to holla -- it would just be nice to know that girls like that exist, somewhere. I mean no drinking or smoking AT ALL. Needless to say this played a part in my relationship ending, rehab for everyone !