Black Poetry : So Unsure

Discussion in 'Black Poetry - Get Your Flow On!' started by Randee, Sep 10, 2003.

  1. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    two weeks, he gave her notice he was moving
    like she was some sort of job
    some unfinished business he could
    clear up within two weeks
    and she went along with this, according to him
    and I have nerve to ask what this means
    to you, her, us - but (in my head) mostly
    for selfish me.

    "i am in love with you"
    he says with conviction.
    For his own pleasure
    or my taunting?
    "I am falling in love with you"
    he says with that beautiful deep smile
    all crooked in the corners, upturning . . .but, I digress. . .
    Well, which is it, do you love me or
    are you beginning to love me?
    And anyway, why? Why me?
    he knows I feel for him,
    we've been there for eachother
    since . . . i can't remember when
    but love like this . . .
    what he wants to start
    still so unsure of my broken heart.

    I want to trust everything
    that comes out his mouth
    but i built this wall around me
    shutting him out whenever i become
    the timid, shy, inexperienced woman
    i hate.

    All these changes melting and fading
    into one another so quickly.
    And he has always been there for me
    when he needs to be
    apologizing profusely when his life
    got in the way of mine
    and promises were forgotten
    and dinner got cold
    and the garbage needed to be taken out
    and gas needed to go into the car
    and i was flat *** broke counting change

    Is this two week notice he delivered her
    going to change our dynamics?
    will it be enough for me to go to sleep at night
    knowing sometime he will crawl in next to me?
    knowing that he loved me more than her?
    Or, will I stay awake late pacing the floor
    searching for headlights that never appear
    phone calls that come hours late
    wondering if my notice is next?
     
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    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Very Nice.
     
  3. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thanks
     
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    true love Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    randee...i hear you loud and clear. girl, this happens to so many people so many times. you just put it into words so good. i loved it.
     
  5. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thanks for the encouragement, they seem to just flow lately from my heart. no bull$hit here, i love it.
     
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    triniti424 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    when you word the struggle my sista...u make me wanna shed a tear for the pain and drama...flow on :)
     
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    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks Triniti, don't worry, I'm gonna be "aight"
     
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    what a question? this was deep randee, honest work! on point!yes, be watchful:toast: :toast: :toast:
     
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    this was nice
     
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    very move'n my sista
    write thru da pain
    till your happiness is gained
    peace
    khasm
     
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