two weeks, he gave her notice he was moving like she was some sort of job some unfinished business he could clear up within two weeks and she went along with this, according to him and I have nerve to ask what this means to you, her, us - but (in my head) mostly for selfish me. "i am in love with you" he says with conviction. For his own pleasure or my taunting? "I am falling in love with you" he says with that beautiful deep smile all crooked in the corners, upturning . . .but, I digress. . . Well, which is it, do you love me or are you beginning to love me? And anyway, why? Why me? he knows I feel for him, we've been there for eachother since . . . i can't remember when but love like this . . . what he wants to start still so unsure of my broken heart. I want to trust everything that comes out his mouth but i built this wall around me shutting him out whenever i become the timid, shy, inexperienced woman i hate. All these changes melting and fading into one another so quickly. And he has always been there for me when he needs to be apologizing profusely when his life got in the way of mine and promises were forgotten and dinner got cold and the garbage needed to be taken out and gas needed to go into the car and i was flat *** broke counting change Is this two week notice he delivered her going to change our dynamics? will it be enough for me to go to sleep at night knowing sometime he will crawl in next to me? knowing that he loved me more than her? Or, will I stay awake late pacing the floor searching for headlights that never appear phone calls that come hours late wondering if my notice is next?