Black People : Signs of sexual abuse a must read........part one

[nevar]

I feel it is very important to talk to our children and be open with them. I have taught my kids at four years of age. That noone including me can touch your private it is off limits. We as parents tend to let T.V and other means teaching our children. I had a conversation with a female and she informed me that others girls were sexually molested. I was shocked because I felt I was alone in this. For along time I kept my abuse a secret until I came here, and is ready to share my story. I will tell you what too look for so your children wont confuse that sex is love.

Imagine you leaving your girls to a caretaker never thinking that harm will come to them. Your young she puts you in the room with her son. We are suppose to be in our bed, but he puts you in his. Im scared I dont know what is about to happen. What is he doing moving my hands down below what can I do. I wanted to scream but couldnt I was frozen with fear. The thing I didnt know what to make of it. I knew it was wrong. Everytime I moved my hand he would put it back. Where's my mommy I want my mommy.
No mommy to comfort me from him. He told me to never tell nobody and I did just that. I cant remember how long he molested me but I was glad we no longer had to go there. Growing up I was confused my body was going thru things I couldnt explain. The sexual abuse wasnt a one time experience it continued until I was thirteen........

I kept a very painful secret of molestation. I finally told her of the incident when I was eight years old. Her reaction was very disappointing to me. It just wasnt the kind of response a thirteen would expect. She wanted me to give it too God. She was a very religious woman but at my age I couldnt nor understood what she meant. I felt like she was no help to me at all. I begin to harbor some resentment towards her. I became unruly, disobedient and had sex at a young age. Sex was my escape or was it.

I looked for love in all the wrong places. They all said the same story and I bought it. My mom or noone couldnt tell me nothing. Smoking, drinking and sexing was me. My body needed that fix that high. Never experienced an orgasm didnt know what that was. Im sorry if you think this is gross for what I done. Im trying to save a life from being confused. Im giving honesty. People like to think this isnt the time or place yes it is. When your child is promiscious and has lots of babies. There is a reason why Im not saying all cases are like that. Ones that been sexually abused say that they aim to please others, and satisfy their needs. As I got older I realized I was sick needed help. I was abused by male and female. That was a very tramatic experience for me as well. Because my abuser was too close to home. And my mom kept saying give it too Jehovah.

He couldnt save me I was meant to never be saved. I wanted to die and leave this d@mned world. All because he wanted pleasure from a little child.
I have to go now but more is too follow. I want to say when I first came here I felt opposition because I wrote about sex here in the beginning. You have to look up my older writings to see what I am talking about. My style of writing has changed as well. I probably wont be able to finish what I started here, but will tell my story thru my blogs. Parents I hope my story will encourage you to talk with your kids about sex. Happiness for me just have started.........to be continued.......

 

[Destee]

I feel it is very important to talk to our children and be open with them. I have taught my kids at four years of age. That noone including me can touch your private it is off limits. We as parents tend to let T.V and other means teaching our children. I had a conversation with a female and she informed me that others girls were sexually molested. I was shocked because I felt I was alone in this. For along time I kept my abuse a secret until I came here, and is ready to share my story. I will tell you what too look for so your children wont confuse that sex is love.

Imagine you leaving your girls to a caretaker never thinking that harm will come to them. Your young she puts you in the room with her son. We are suppose to be in our bed, but he puts you in his. Im scared I dont know what is about to happen. What is he doing moving my hands down below what can I do. I wanted to scream but couldnt I was frozen with fear. The thing I didnt know what to make of it. I knew it was wrong. Everytime I moved my hand he would put it back. Where's my mommy I want my mommy.
No mommy to comfort me from him. He told me to never tell nobody and I did just that. I cant remember how long he molested me but I was glad we no longer had to go there. Growing up I was confused my body was going thru things I couldnt explain. The sexual abuse wasnt a one time experience it continued until I was thirteen........

I kept a very painful secret of molestation. I finally told her of the incident when I was eight years old. Her reaction was very disappointing to me. It just wasnt the kind of response a thirteen would expect. She wanted me to give it too God. She was a very religious woman but at my age I couldnt nor understood what she meant. I felt like she was no help to me at all. I begin to harbor some resentment towards her. I became unruly, disobedient and had sex at a young age. Sex was my escape or was it.

I looked for love in all the wrong places. They all said the same story and I bought it. My mom or noone couldnt tell me nothing. Smoking, drinking and sexing was me. My body needed that fix that high. Never experienced an orgasm didnt know what that was. Im sorry if you think this is gross for what I done. Im trying to save a life from being confused. Im giving honesty. People like to think this isnt the time or place yes it is. When your child is promiscious and has lots of babies. There is a reason why Im not saying all cases are like that. Ones that been sexually abused say that they aim to please others, and satisfy their needs. As I got older I realized I was sick needed help. I was abused by male and female. That was a very tramatic experience for me as well. Because my abuser was too close to home. And my mom kept saying give it too Jehovah.

He couldnt save me I was meant to never be saved. I wanted to die and leave this d@mned world. All because he wanted pleasure from a little child.
I have to go now but more is too follow. I want to say when I first came here I felt opposition because I wrote about sex here in the beginning. You have to look up my older writings to see what I am talking about. My style of writing has changed as well. I probably wont be able to finish what I started here, but will tell my story thru my blogs. Parents I hope my story will encourage you to talk with your kids about sex. Happiness for me just have started.........to be continued.......

Sister Nevar ... this is so very powerful, so very revealing, so very painful to even read, and i know it must have been, to live it.

I am honored, humbled, and amazed at the courage it took, to say the above. To make it plain and clear for our babies out here. To let every Sister know, that she is not alone. To help us all recognize, that the behavior we're seeing in our children, is oftentimes rooted in something totally unrelated, that would break our hearts as parents, if we knew.

Your Courage Sister. Thank You.

This is what this community is about. Lives are transformed here. You are evidence of that. You came here one way, and look at you now! ... you came in talking of sex, promoting it, encouraging it ... and look at you now !!! ... speaking the truth about it, sharing how it all began for you ... providing clear warnings for us all.

I'm honored beyond compare.

I can't quit talking.

Simply in awe.

Far too many of us ... Sisters ... have this same story to tell.

We are so wounded, walking around trying to look whole, not even able to acknowledge our own pain ... manifesting the pain in so many different ways.

Taught to be quiet about it.

Thank you Sister, for not being quiet anymore.

Much Much Love and Peace.



Destee

 

[PurpleMoons]

Thank You Sister Nevar!

We are many and many memories are hiding somewhere in the back of our minds or manifesting itself in our actions. When my children was young i found it very difficult to leave my children with anyone but my Momma. But sometimes you have that emergency moment when momma aint available and you need someone right away to look after your children. Ohhhh the haunting thoughts that run rampage in the mind. When i would return i would check every inch of their precious little body....asking all kinds of questions, looking deep into their eyes for any sign of confusion or awkwardness. Til this day i'm still checking, looking and asking questions. I never want to imagine my children experiencing the same as i did. Yet whenever I leave them with someone other than my Mom, the scene plays back in my mind. I'm even suspicious of other children. Some children like to explore their curiosity and/or role play back what has happen to them with other children.

There's so many ways children are being abused, and i've considered them all. I've manage to build an open relationship with my children. Letting them know that nothing is ever to horrible to tell me. I've let them know that sometimes i may be disappointed and angry at their actions, but we will work through it. It could never stop me from loving them.

Your openness to discuss this is so needed and valuable. It promotes awareness, precautions, understanding, and strength. It teaches us how to protect our children and let others know, we are not alone!

Thank you Sister Nevar!

 

[nevar]

I look back on my past writings and you can see i was still pleasuring others and not myself. I couldnt give it too God when I was a child but now as an adult I have........and my life is much better. i have a wonderful man who is teaching the meaning of love and not just giving sex. im not ashame to say he has taught me for the first time the art of making love and saying goodbye to my sex. i feel like i owe him alot because he was the first man to care about myself and stop abusing myself.........Destee there are other sisters here I've connected with that has been sexual abused........and we are strong women of today.....so thanks for letting me grow here....

 

[nevar]

sista Moon thank you for your love......