Hows it going family? Im gonna try and be quick as possible with this type out as i can without over doing it. I know for a fact from akashic readings to divination and dream work that im being called to be a medicine man (shaman) by my ancestors but i have no physical guidance whats so ever no teacher no elder no nothing.
I keep having breathing problems and making trips to the ER the drs keep diagnosing me with asthma and giving me all these steriods which just makes my symptoms worse! I have this deep gut feeling its the "shamans sickness" but i could be wrong. Im losing touch with reality, ive lost everthing from my job to house and im getting close to losing my mind. Im scared for my life because i think i know what i need to do but dont know how to go @ it 1 bit, im just 23 with 3 Lil girls that i dont wont to fail and end up dead or locked away in some asylum somewhere!! I keep having panic attacks my anxiety and stress level is out the roof im being woken up outta my sleep by figures standing next to my bed. In the town where im @ theirs nobody to help me every ones christians im the only 1 in my family thats spiritual not religious and idk what to do or who to turn too! Its lonely and i feel like im losing more and more each day, i know the spirits wouldnt put me through this if they thought i couldnt handle it i just wanna know what exactly i need to do and where i need to go!! I done lost everything its @ the point where i just want to run away to the woods til i can channel this power the right way with no distractions but i have so many responsibilities here. Plus i dont think i should waste my time with these white neo shamans because their shamanism isnt pure enough @ least thats what the spirits keep telling me so im left @ this stand still not knowing where to go and how to move. Long story short I NEED HELP is there anyone who could help me or know someone who could lend a helping hand?? I Would greatly appreciate it i really would!! I could say soooo much more but first i gotta see if someone can help first.
"YOUKO" I DUG DEEP NOW ITS TIME TO GET DIRTY...
I keep having breathing problems and making trips to the ER the drs keep diagnosing me with asthma and giving me all these steriods which just makes my symptoms worse! I have this deep gut feeling its the "shamans sickness" but i could be wrong. Im losing touch with reality, ive lost everthing from my job to house and im getting close to losing my mind. Im scared for my life because i think i know what i need to do but dont know how to go @ it 1 bit, im just 23 with 3 Lil girls that i dont wont to fail and end up dead or locked away in some asylum somewhere!! I keep having panic attacks my anxiety and stress level is out the roof im being woken up outta my sleep by figures standing next to my bed. In the town where im @ theirs nobody to help me every ones christians im the only 1 in my family thats spiritual not religious and idk what to do or who to turn too! Its lonely and i feel like im losing more and more each day, i know the spirits wouldnt put me through this if they thought i couldnt handle it i just wanna know what exactly i need to do and where i need to go!! I done lost everything its @ the point where i just want to run away to the woods til i can channel this power the right way with no distractions but i have so many responsibilities here. Plus i dont think i should waste my time with these white neo shamans because their shamanism isnt pure enough @ least thats what the spirits keep telling me so im left @ this stand still not knowing where to go and how to move. Long story short I NEED HELP is there anyone who could help me or know someone who could lend a helping hand?? I Would greatly appreciate it i really would!! I could say soooo much more but first i gotta see if someone can help first.
"YOUKO" I DUG DEEP NOW ITS TIME TO GET DIRTY...