Black Poetry : Scrutinizing heart...

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  1. cocobutterskyn

    cocobutterskyn Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I
    hate
    the words that came
    from my mouth yesterday
    seconds later my heart ached because
    (I didn’t mean them)

    its
    just that my
    heart scrutinizes
    intentions for signs of sincerity

    sometimes…

    I
    wish
    I could cut it out
    the lack-of-trust-in-me

    but…

    how
    can I part ways
    with what has kept
    pain at bay since the night
    I cried it all away?

    why…?

    why
    can’t
    I
    stay
    here
    in
    this
    guarded place
    I find uncomfortably
    comfortable?
    I’m
    not hurting
    anyone by protecting
    myself…

    am I?

    I
    believed
    (wholeheartedly)
    in love being a risk
    worth taking
    so…

    I
    did

    and…

    It
    was

    until…

    I
    felt
    the pain of it
    slowly depreciating
    into nothing
    left

    based on that fact…

    it
    (really)
    wasn’t

    yes
    warm and cozy
    may not visit regularly
    and loneliness’ chill
    sometimes slip through small
    cracks in the wall I built a little more
    often than I’d like
    but…

    I
    grin
    and
    bare
    it

    because…

    hurt
    has
    proven
    itself
    to
    be
    much
    worse

    at least that’s…

    my
    scrutinizing
    heart’s take on it
    and…

    for
    now I’m
    happy riding
    shotgun

    until…

    I’m
    (emotionally)
    ready
    to
    sit
    in
    the
    driver's
    seat


    is that so unreasonable?




    MaddSistahlyLove!
    Coco:heart:
     
  2. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    WHAT IS REASONABLE?

    what is the color of truth when truth won't let me be
    what is the language we speak when we want to be free
    what is the code we use to break through that barrier door
    and what is the sound our heart makes...when we can't take it no more

    the breaks in our heart sing solemn rhapsodies
    of "forever" turned never...and the "goodbye" mysteries
    as, alone, we sit...in a chamber all our own
    it may not be where we want to be...but to sit is never wrong

    NOR UNREASONABLE

    let the river flow
     
  3. 4EVERLUV

    4EVERLUV Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    coco:
    Yet again....you have stirred so deep.
    (smh)......I got goose bumps reading this
    because I feel you so....NO I REALLY DO.


    why
    can’t
    I
    stay
    here
    in
    this
    guarded place
    I find uncomfortably
    comfortable?
    I’m
    not hurting
    anyone by protecting
    myself…
    am I?


    Talk about all in my thoughts. I feel
    these emotions so deep. You laid
    this out flawlessly. :bowdown::bowdown:

    baller:
    the flo back was on point as
    usual.


    Much Luv
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    just str8 up awesome i felt every bit of this sis u took my mind somewhere
     
  5. cocobutterskyn

    cocobutterskyn Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I'm thankful...

    you all were about to feel the passion in my words.

    4Ever, I'll try to keep out your thoughts:)

    Thanks Baller for your words.


    MaddSistahlyLove!
    Coco:heart:
     
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    triniti424 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    no words sister.
    Just understanding.
    And prayers... cause I OVER-stand my sister I do :read:
     
  7. Da Street So'ja

    Da Street So'ja Banned MEMBER

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    no it is not unreasonable

    you have nothing to apologize about

    you have a right to know you are dealing with sincerity

    and if you heart needs to check that then so be it

    another brilliant write POET

    this is a good defense especially in the land of camouflage and cut-throats
     
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    jus_dat_nice Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    as always im loving your words coco
    write on!
     
  9. cocobutterskyn

    cocobutterskyn Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Trinti,
    understanding is a comforting gift... and I thank you.:)


    So'ja Man,
    sad, but true. Thank you for your kind words:)

    Jus... simply likewise! And I appreciate that:)


    MaddSistahlyLoveYall!
    Coco:heart:
     
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    sweet apple*pie Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This was truly magnificent.

    I really felt the unearthed heart stings of sentiment.....

    and can totally relate and understand.

    :spinstar: Beautiful piece!
     
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