i'm trying to understand how it is you feel but in order to get answers i have to wade through my own fears and listen to my own insecurities about why i want you here i have begged you to come and stay before our child's born; silently pleading to be your wife, raise a family with a common claim secretly praying for a boy ensuring he can have at least one of your names . . . all right to lay down with me make love and confide nearly night and day you were by my side me and this baby need something more concrete what we are undertaking is no simple feat and from two homes and two lives how will the three of us ever be complete? I guess i am disappointed - although none of this was planned you have been my best friend for ten years how can you turn away from me claiming to be a man? I want you to be there for me like you've always been there before why is it now, after all this time you choose revolving doors You confuse me by offering your love and then refusing to commit why can't you just make this simple and make us permanent. You have always told me i am your babygirl for me there is nothing you wouldn't do now that your baby's having your baby just say you'll be in our lives forever, maybe just won't do.