Black Poetry : Remembering

Discussion in 'Black Poetry - Get Your Flow On!' started by Randee, Feb 10, 2004.

  1. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    i'm trying to understand
    how it is you feel
    but in order to get answers
    i have to wade through my own fears
    and listen to my own insecurities
    about why i want you here
    i have begged you to come and stay
    before our child's born;
    silently pleading to be your wife,
    raise a family with a common claim
    secretly praying for a boy ensuring
    he can have at least one of your names . . .
    all right to lay down with me
    make love and confide
    nearly night and day you were by my side
    me and this baby need something more concrete
    what we are undertaking is no simple feat
    and from two homes and two lives
    how will the three of us ever be complete?
    I guess i am disappointed -
    although none of this was planned
    you have been my best friend for ten years
    how can you turn away from me claiming to be a man?
    I want you to be there for me like you've always been there before
    why is it now, after all this time you choose revolving doors
    You confuse me by offering your love
    and then refusing to commit
    why can't you just make this simple
    and make us permanent.
    You have always told me i am your babygirl
    for me there is nothing you wouldn't do
    now that your baby's having your baby
    just say you'll be in our lives forever, maybe just won't do.
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    whoa !!!! i hear ya in dis one here flow on
     
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    Beautiful poem. Too bad this is a sad reality too many women relate to.
     
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    Something I could never understand is why?

    Run from your child?
    Betray the love you've had 4 years?
    Want respect when U give none?

    Sister, I wish U love, strength & all the wisdom the Almighty deems fit 4 U.

    Nice/terrible piece.
     
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    :grouphug: sista...I too pray for the piece/peace of mind you need to make it through that which you endure.
     
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    Emotionally posed. Fear makes a person do outrageous things--not an excuse though. Hopefully, reality will set in for the brotha.
     
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    the emotional tides that flow from your heart
    often leave me speechless....although heavy
    with the weight of the world...your world...
    You are a strong sister...that is evident
    in your words...
    Keep your head up...there is a season for all things...
     
  8. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    what did i expect though, that he would do something no other brothers are doing and stay and raise a family and not a child. I should have taken better care of myself, but then why can't he just say he wants to be part of his child's life and not mine. Why is he with me 6 nights a week and we're paying rent in two places, bills in two places. Why can't he just love me like he says he does???? They are so confusing. And he wonders why i act miserable sometimes. I am forced to be silent about my wants and needs so his can be fulfilled and zi don't sound like a nagging women. It's not strength i lack, its committment from a man i have known for ten years who loved me enough to lay down with me and rejoice in knowing he will be a parent but can't make me his wife. And, i work, i volunteer, i go to church, i cook, i clean . . .what am i doing wrong people?
     
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