Relationships, Common Dreams. It seems like a dream. I want it to be so. I was walking down the street and I saw someone I knew. I was standing talking and you walked up. A friend of ours came up to me the other day and said you were mad at me. They told me you hated me. I want to talk with you. I want to clear the air. I want to love you. I want to be your friend at least. You still mean so much to me. Someone I still care about. Someone I still had feelings for. I saw someone I still loved. I waved and looked at them waiting at least to be acknowledged. It didn’t happen. I thought maybe they didn’t see me. They were looking straight at me. They were staring at me too. I never forget someone. Especially a face. I may forget their name. Because I get so busy. So much on my mind sometimes. So many people I know. Then again I just drew a blank moment. My sharp mind just failed me especially when I need it to react to the situation. How could they not see me? Do I wave again? I possess no pride, that I over ride how I think and feel. I have no self thoughts of revenge. Thoughts that keep me from being honest with how I feel. Thoughts that keep me from doing something others would never do. Like saying I’m sorry. I’m very sorry. I care about you. I feel this way about you and you’re special. I think about you all the time. Sharing desires to be needed by them desires to be wanted by them too. I miss you. I miss your smile. I love you. I love you so much. I have no problem saying any of those things. I’m not perfect. I know they misunderstand something about me. I’m not complex. But I know they misunderstood something about me. I don’t mix words. But do know they misunderstood something about me. I was misjudged. I was slow to see. I misunderstood the intent of my actions. Something happened to cause this situation. I search for answers after it smacks me clear in the face. Usually after they have gone. Left my life. Vanished into the ether. But I see them now. Standing clear as day. Right in front of me. So I do wave again. This time I approach them. Not in a bold way. Because I do not believe intimidation will win at this point. It is a delicate situation. Because I feel the emotion of patching this misunderstanding up is important to me. I at least would like to clear the air. We may never be friends again. We may never again be lovers. It may be the way I find peace. Inner peace within myself. A resolution. I want to say I am sorry. I would like to add I miss you. Even though I know we will never come together again. I have to say something. If I could hold you that would make a difference. Around your waist was my favorite place to hold you by my side. But I would settle for a hand shake, hand held look into your eyes. While we talk. I so much want to talk with you. I have so much I need to say. I apologize. Hand holding. Touching. I believe the intimacy is transferred that way. Also I want you take me serious. I want you to know. I miss you. I still need you. I still want you. I still love you so. I am sorry things had to end this way. The way they were before. I’m sorry things had to end this way need I say more? Now I have new direction in my life. I have matured and grown since we were last together. I’m wiser more aware. I’m sorry things had to end that way. Need I say more? My heart is no longer injured. Now I can sleep. I feel better now. One by one we will meet agin. I will go thru the same thing to try and win a friend. Life can be short. Life can be long. We don't and aren't promised tomorrow. So I do this as I go along. I am at peace.