Black Women : Question for Black women about female homosexuality?

[ellen covington]

Well, I sure loved me some grown women when I was a little girl. Although I enjoyed being in the clothes closet with the other little girls from down the street.

I loved sitting in the lap of my mom's best friend with my head laid on her chest and watching her walk around with those daisy dukes on. Yes Lord..

Those are fond memories that I still cherish.

That wasn't taught. That wasn't nurtured. That was innate and I loved it.

Nothing has changed in over 3 decades.

Are you sure you wasn't watching these women to want to be like them. I used to look at body parts and claim them as mine in my mind. After I saw poetic justice I claimed Janet Jackson's breast. I used to think Im going to have boobies like those or Im going to have a body like that. I even used too work out everyday with my big sister so I can have a body like hers. I looked at women that I wanted to be like. I mimicked their styles and their walk. I watched how much class they had and how they were treated. How men talked about them. If a woman walked down the street I thought was pretty I even looked at all the men to see if they was watching her or not. I listened to the things grown women talked about. I had pretend birthday parties with my cousin for our dolls and denied my cousin chocolate frosting telling her my baby comes first and i need it for her birthday party. Yep I wanted to be a grown woman so bad. I watched my grandma's handshakes, leg crossings, cooking skills and society language. That was my socialization of being the type of woman I am today. I became everything I thought was good from the women I know not on purpose just happened that way. Even my taste of men are like the men in my family, conscience intelligent protective.

 

[I'm Becoming Me]

Are you sure you wasn't watching these women to want to be like them. I used to look at body parts and claim them as mine in my mind. After I saw poetic justice I claimed Janet Jackson's breast. I used to think Im going to have boobies like those or Im going to have a body like that. I even used too work out everyday with my big sister so I can have a body like hers. I looked at women that I wanted to be like. I mimicked their styles and their walk. I watched how much class they had and how they were treated. How men talked about them. If a woman walked down the street I thought was pretty I even looked at all the men to see if they was watching her or not. I listened to the things grown women talked about. I had pretend birthday parties with my cousin for our dolls and denied my cousin chocolate frosting telling her my baby comes first and i need it for her birthday party. Yep I wanted to be a grown woman so bad. I watched my grandma's handshakes, leg crossings, cooking skills and society language. That was my socialization of being the type of woman I am today. I became everything I thought was good from the women I know not on purpose just happened that way. Even my taste of men are like the men in my family, conscience intelligent protective.

No darling.

I was watching them because I was attracted to them and stimulated by them. I knew the difference between the woman I wanted to mimic and those that I found very attractive and stimulating.

There was a difference, and in some cases it was the same woman, but usually not.

I had no attraction to boys or men, none. Still don't. So, I'd say I was born that way.

 

[I'm Becoming Me]

BTW, All of this started at a young ripe age of 7 yrs old.

I had No sexually abuse. No rape. None of that stuff that some would love to say turns women into lesbians. I was not exposed to it. I just knew thats what I wanted to be when I grew up. (I actually said that when I was a little girl)..I said, "I want to be gay when I grow up". I knew what it was and I was clear that it what I was.

The truth is though, when I think about it..I could see how that could turn a woman completely off from a man. (Rape, Abuse) But, I know many women who have this experience and they are still heterosexual women to the heart or some of them are bisexual as well.

 

[Angela22]

I'd like to know why people call it "female homosexuality", when it's really "lesbianism". I mean, "homo-" means "man", right? How can a woman be a "homosexual", without just being heterosexual?

 

[ellen covington]

I'd like to know why people call it "female homosexuality", when it's really "lesbianism". I mean, "homo-" means "man", right? How can a woman be a "homosexual", without just being heterosexual?

Homo=same Hetero=different