simunyaa...Welcome to our Forums.
If you are who you describe yourself to be, it takes courage to come to an afrocentric website, where the obvious majority of sentiments expressed here are afrocentric, and describe personal feelings about what it's like to be White living in an African nation where some Black citizens dislike you because of the color of your skin. I'm glad that you took the time to come and share your thoughts and pose your question.
I read your short story. It's one that sounds so familiar to a Black person--anywhere on this globe. All the reader had to do was to reverse the roles of your main character and make him a boy/man or a girl/woman with Black skin, and it immediately reflects a history rife with hatred and abominable treatment simply because of the color of their skin.
I don't think I would be totally wrong to suggest that the story of Blacks being in your shoes pre-dates your personal experience by a few years, don't you agree? And, I'm sure this comes as no surprise either--it's still happening. What amazes me is that having witnessed it first-hand, you still see a need to question how and why conscious Black people define Panafricanism the way they do?
I'm not an insensitive person simunyaa so I felt the pain and understood the struggle of the person you wrote about. However, like I wrote earlier, it's all too familiar to many of us here because we're usually the one's in your shoes. Many of us can write a story like that about walking or driving the streets in America today. Without question, no one should be judged or stereotyped because they were born looking a certain way.
Did anyone ever ask us how we felt about being raped, murdered and poisoned with diseases by people who didn't see or care about us as human beings, but only wanted what was ours -- natural and human resources -- for their own personal gain?
Surely you can see that as rational as one might try to be and think how beautiful life would be without such despotism, the historical and present day facts make it impossible to ignore that although there may be a few, most white people have NOT achieved that level of understanding and empathy yet.
Why do you think that a growing number of Black people around the world are joining together to fight racism and oppression and who do you think they see as their enemy? Do you think it's because they have nothing better to do? You say you've read many of the threads here and they tend to deal with racism a lot. Why do you think that is simunyaa and do you think it's just a figment of a whole group's imagination? Black people may be many things, but color blind and stupid they are not.
I'm empathetic toward your plea for a day where race or the color of one's skin won't matter anymore, but look around you and tell me what you see, and you live in Berlin, Germany?
Finally, I just want to say, to me, Panafricanism is about a united front of Black people around the world fighting back against racism and oppressive dictators that have and still are using it to destroy us and take from us. Simunyaa, if you're being genuine and believe that you're not among those, then I would suggest that you move out the way and make it known by fighting the ones who are--primarily your own people. Panafricanists have it covered on this end, because we already know that a new day IS coming!
Peace!