PAIN
O, pain of my PAIN
~ My constant companion
Why doth thou possess me so?
ME?
My aching heart and weary soul
Bones and joints both fragile and old
Emotionally spent and psychologically stressed
Mentally and physically, I’ve given my best
Where is the hope?
O, pain of my PAIN
~ My constant companion
I walk the streets of everyday life
And…to my right
Always
Pain
You whispered your pleasure
At my discomfort
As you STROLLED
Alongside
Me
I did not falter.
Emboldened
By the hope of
A Better Tomorrow
One devoid of The Sorrow-filled existence
I live with…everyday
I stood…to walk away
But the roots of my pain ran deep
Insinuating itself in the depths of my insides
Gnawing away at my confidence...my soul…my pride
Relieving me of common sense
How dense could I be
To allow another their control of me
Manipulation and frustration has long held sway over me
Cleverly dressing and caressing me…into my misgivings
Where is the positive (in) living
When the negative is running Roughshod
Over hopes and dreams
Your taste is Repulsive
Yet, you’re served up on a platter…Daily
I wish no one to taste my pain
So…I pain alone
Pretending to be strong
I’ve struggled long
Why must I endure
The weight of such pain?
The battle scars
Of a misguided youth
Trying to be a man
But doesn’t understand
A man’s role
So…life goes
The emotional scars
From relationship’s end
When my lady tripped
Over things her friends told her
…didn’t care that I could show her
Her friends were lying
So…I stopped trying
The psychological scars
Of an abusively dysfunctional home
During an upbringing where I stood alone
Against a father both mean and strong
‘Til I became the man he’d been to me…All along
Pained
I sleep…to pain
I wake…to pain
I lay here…Weeping…The pain of my PAIN
Disappointment smothered me
Frustration bamboozled me
I’ve seen joy in the eyes of others…And I’ve asked
WHY NOT ME?
Yesterday held so much hope
Only to find today a disappointment
One I hope soon to forget
For now, I remember
I remember the day
“Hello” gave birth to
A promising tomorrow
Only to be snatched away by sorrow
Eating away at my will to survive
But surviving wasn’t high
On my wish list
Did you catch the gist
Drowning in the depths of Emptiness
Woo’ed by Despair And lonliness
While Guilt and Depression
Offered up lessons in
Frustration
(‘Twas A horrible situation)
Remorse runs the full gambit
From disappointment to pain
Sustained by loss and disdain
That puts a strangle-hold
On the will of my soul…to survive
Again…I won’t lie
Surviving isn’t high
On my wish list
I thought…
I could handle this…
…This Remorse
For bad things I’ve done
…The pain I’ve caused
Under moon and sun
It was inevitable that today would be
…That you would someday leave me
How could it be…otherwise?
It was karma’s fault
Karma boomerangs
Off all the people
You’ve ever pained
Then offers the same
To you
It’s true
It hurts to breathe
To see beyond the pain of my tormented
Time spent brooding over love lost
Was time wasted
So, I did what every red-blooded American male would do
I boo-hoo’d til it faded
Tears bubbled over
Cascading down moistened cheeks
Yes…I wept
At the pain of losing you
It’s not the BLUES I’m going through
But a throbbing pain that gained in intensity
I could not see the path of my destiny
My flow was subdued
My every thought was of you
But the pain of not having you
Is what I was going through
I take solace in prayer
And bible teachings like:
“God shall not put more on you than you can bear”
I lay here
Grappling with this
Debilitating pain
I’ve asked
Time and time again
WHY ME?
Then the forecast changed
And the rains came
~ My constant companion.
O, pain of my PAIN
~ My constant companion
Why doth thou possess me so?
ME?
My aching heart and weary soul
Bones and joints both fragile and old
Emotionally spent and psychologically stressed
Mentally and physically, I’ve given my best
Where is the hope?
O, pain of my PAIN
~ My constant companion
I walk the streets of everyday life
And…to my right
Always
Pain
You whispered your pleasure
At my discomfort
As you STROLLED
Alongside
Me
I did not falter.
Emboldened
By the hope of
A Better Tomorrow
One devoid of The Sorrow-filled existence
I live with…everyday
I stood…to walk away
But the roots of my pain ran deep
Insinuating itself in the depths of my insides
Gnawing away at my confidence...my soul…my pride
Relieving me of common sense
How dense could I be
To allow another their control of me
Manipulation and frustration has long held sway over me
Cleverly dressing and caressing me…into my misgivings
Where is the positive (in) living
When the negative is running Roughshod
Over hopes and dreams
Your taste is Repulsive
Yet, you’re served up on a platter…Daily
I wish no one to taste my pain
So…I pain alone
Pretending to be strong
I’ve struggled long
Why must I endure
The weight of such pain?
The battle scars
Of a misguided youth
Trying to be a man
But doesn’t understand
A man’s role
So…life goes
The emotional scars
From relationship’s end
When my lady tripped
Over things her friends told her
…didn’t care that I could show her
Her friends were lying
So…I stopped trying
The psychological scars
Of an abusively dysfunctional home
During an upbringing where I stood alone
Against a father both mean and strong
‘Til I became the man he’d been to me…All along
Pained
I sleep…to pain
I wake…to pain
I lay here…Weeping…The pain of my PAIN
Disappointment smothered me
Frustration bamboozled me
I’ve seen joy in the eyes of others…And I’ve asked
WHY NOT ME?
Yesterday held so much hope
Only to find today a disappointment
One I hope soon to forget
For now, I remember
I remember the day
“Hello” gave birth to
A promising tomorrow
Only to be snatched away by sorrow
Eating away at my will to survive
But surviving wasn’t high
On my wish list
Did you catch the gist
Drowning in the depths of Emptiness
Woo’ed by Despair And lonliness
While Guilt and Depression
Offered up lessons in
Frustration
(‘Twas A horrible situation)
Remorse runs the full gambit
From disappointment to pain
Sustained by loss and disdain
That puts a strangle-hold
On the will of my soul…to survive
Again…I won’t lie
Surviving isn’t high
On my wish list
I thought…
I could handle this…
…This Remorse
For bad things I’ve done
…The pain I’ve caused
Under moon and sun
It was inevitable that today would be
…That you would someday leave me
How could it be…otherwise?
It was karma’s fault
Karma boomerangs
Off all the people
You’ve ever pained
Then offers the same
To you
It’s true
It hurts to breathe
To see beyond the pain of my tormented
Time spent brooding over love lost
Was time wasted
So, I did what every red-blooded American male would do
I boo-hoo’d til it faded
Tears bubbled over
Cascading down moistened cheeks
Yes…I wept
At the pain of losing you
It’s not the BLUES I’m going through
But a throbbing pain that gained in intensity
I could not see the path of my destiny
My flow was subdued
My every thought was of you
But the pain of not having you
Is what I was going through
I take solace in prayer
And bible teachings like:
“God shall not put more on you than you can bear”
I lay here
Grappling with this
Debilitating pain
I’ve asked
Time and time again
WHY ME?
Then the forecast changed
And the rains came
~ My constant companion.