Black Poetry : pAiN

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  1. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    PAIN

    O, pain of my PAIN
    ~ My constant companion

    Why doth thou possess me so?

    ME?

    My aching heart and weary soul
    Bones and joints both fragile and old
    Emotionally spent and psychologically stressed
    Mentally and physically, I’ve given my best

    Where is the hope?

    O, pain of my PAIN
    ~ My constant companion

    I walk the streets of everyday life
    And…to my right
    Always
    Pain

    You whispered your pleasure
    At my discomfort
    As you STROLLED
    Alongside
    Me

    I did not falter.

    Emboldened
    By the hope of
    A Better Tomorrow
    One devoid of The Sorrow-filled existence
    I live with…everyday

    I stood…to walk away
    But the roots of my pain ran deep
    Insinuating itself in the depths of my insides
    Gnawing away at my confidence...my soul…my pride

    Relieving me of common sense

    How dense could I be
    To allow another their control of me

    Manipulation and frustration has long held sway over me
    Cleverly dressing and caressing me…into my misgivings

    Where is the positive (in) living
    When the negative is running Roughshod
    Over hopes and dreams



    Your taste is Repulsive
    Yet, you’re served up on a platter…Daily

    I wish no one to taste my pain
    So…I pain alone
    Pretending to be strong
    I’ve struggled long

    Why must I endure
    The weight of such pain?

    The battle scars
    Of a misguided youth
    Trying to be a man
    But doesn’t understand
    A man’s role

    So…life goes

    The emotional scars
    From relationship’s end
    When my lady tripped
    Over things her friends told her
    …didn’t care that I could show her
    Her friends were lying

    So…I stopped trying

    The psychological scars
    Of an abusively dysfunctional home
    During an upbringing where I stood alone
    Against a father both mean and strong
    ‘Til I became the man he’d been to me…All along

    Pained

    I sleep…to pain
    I wake…to pain
    I lay here…Weeping…The pain of my PAIN

    Disappointment smothered me
    Frustration bamboozled me
    I’ve seen joy in the eyes of others…And I’ve asked

    WHY NOT ME?

    Yesterday held so much hope
    Only to find today a disappointment
    One I hope soon to forget

    For now, I remember

    I remember the day
    “Hello” gave birth to
    A promising tomorrow
    Only to be snatched away by sorrow
    Eating away at my will to survive
    But surviving wasn’t high
    On my wish list

    Did you catch the gist

    Drowning in the depths of Emptiness
    Woo’ed by Despair And lonliness
    While Guilt and Depression
    Offered up lessons in
    Frustration

    (‘Twas A horrible situation)

    Remorse runs the full gambit
    From disappointment to pain
    Sustained by loss and disdain
    That puts a strangle-hold
    On the will of my soul…to survive

    Again…I won’t lie

    Surviving isn’t high
    On my wish list

    I thought…
    I could handle this…
    …This Remorse
    For bad things I’ve done
    …The pain I’ve caused
    Under moon and sun
    It was inevitable that today would be
    …That you would someday leave me

    How could it be…otherwise?

    It was karma’s fault

    Karma boomerangs
    Off all the people
    You’ve ever pained
    Then offers the same
    To you

    It’s true

    It hurts to breathe
    To see beyond the pain of my tormented
    Time spent brooding over love lost
    Was time wasted
    So, I did what every red-blooded American male would do

    I boo-hoo’d til it faded

    Tears bubbled over
    Cascading down moistened cheeks
    Yes…I wept
    At the pain of losing you

    It’s not the BLUES I’m going through
    But a throbbing pain that gained in intensity

    I could not see the path of my destiny

    My flow was subdued
    My every thought was of you
    But the pain of not having you
    Is what I was going through

    I take solace in prayer
    And bible teachings like:
    “God shall not put more on you than you can bear”

    I lay here
    Grappling with this
    Debilitating pain

    I’ve asked
    Time and time again

    WHY ME?

    Then the forecast changed

    And the rains came

    ~ My constant companion.​
     
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    thatgirl74 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Wow I felt that. Well done.
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    Pain i know so well , while i was relating to it deep ya flow was dancin to da beat
    awesome piece BALLERRRRRRRR!!!!!!!
     
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    moham Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This was very touching.
     
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    Baller...as a teacher of English Literature and a student of Shakespeare, I must admit the tone of this piece is reminiscent of his works...You have penned this very well, my friend...I can see this as a part of a greater work acted out on the stage...

    Shakespearean gifting....

    This...is...excellent!!!
     
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    JUST WOW!
     
  7. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    along with the good, there is bad

    and we've all experienced downfalls. THANKS for reading
     
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