Hey, you all can take this for what its worth to you, but I will share this because something is tugging at me to tell. This is my journey back.
Disclaimer: Many times our people are so caught up in the rational left-brained or Westernized way of thinking, that we discount the experiential because it doesn't fit into our neat box of logic and physical laws. So if you are a free thinker, a free mind, I invite you to journey with me as I recall what was imprinted on my consciousness and integrated into my energetic makeup.
The Preparation:
In 2002, a month before I was "scratched", I embarked on a bodily cleansing and purification regimen. For 7 days, I ate only steamed and raw green vegetables. I wore only green whenever I could. The next 7 days I took herbs to purge myself internally. I wore only red clothing whenever possible. The next 3 days I fasted on with juices and water. The last 11 days I gradually integrated raw greens and calcium into my diet. I took 7 days worth of "cooling" baths at the beginning and at the ending of my regimen. During my rayado, I continued my diet. About 21 days after rayado and after each day going before my ancestors, I sat at one of my "spirit pots" I made for my unknown ancestors and constantly asked them for strength and guidance as I held two malachite crystals. I like malachite because of its cooling qualities and energy strengthening properties. Well about 10 days after rayado, I noticed an opening in my brow chakra, evidenced by pressure felt at that point. At night, I would experience the buzzing, pressure and mentally see the intense bright lights of indigo, purple and orange of an astral experience shining behind my closed eyelids. So these things were occuring for me after my initiation.
The Journey:
After spending what seem like an eternity at my shrine, but in actuality was only a few minutes, I decided to go to sleep. Laying down at bed, I felt the onset of an astral experience coming. I saw the lights first, bright and intense, almost if a car was about to ram into my room. It started out as one single white light that constantly moved in the darkness of my "mind's eye". As time went on, the color changed to an indigo and I felt a tenseness in my forehead. I watch the light continue to float around, changing from indigo to purple and growing larger. Next, I heard buzzing going off into my head or more like a bee humming. A thousand tiny prickly sensations shot thru my body, rendering my limbs and appendages paralysed. I was drifting to and fro out of consciousness. A feeling of separation was happening now and an urging to let go. I fought it with horror, fearing I would die if I surrendered. My soul wanted to flee, but my flesh sensed death. Eventually, I felt a presence in the room, a light form, coaxing me to let go. Weary, I ultimately released and accept what fate was for me. Blackness.
I traveled to what I would call the Akashic records and heard a voice bellow, "Know the Laws, learn the Laws, master the Laws - He who knows the Laws, learn the Laws, master the Laws, rules the Universe." I traveled to other places and made sacred vows. Despite what seemed like a night's sleep, my experience ended only a few minutes from the time I first laid my head down. I know because I woke up from the adventure in sweat.
Laying back down, I went to sleep immediately. From sleep, I step into an African savanna because I could see the baobab trees interspersing the grasslands. I was entranced by one of the trees, I walked over to it and wrapped around one of its limbs was a fat python. I went closer to see the python. He looked at me, intently, slowly winding around the limb. I could heard the limb creak from the pressure. As his eyes and mine met, I was transported into his body. My head was filled with a buzzing sound. Soon as we integrated, images began flashing in my mind. I could hear the python's voice saying, "Let me tell you about time...." Next I saw 7 shapes, different forms of sacred geometry. The serpent said, "They all look different, all appear differentiated, but they are all the same, the same energy manifesting at a different vibration - so is the same with time. Time is one but appears lineal because of the vibration at a certain point, it acquires a particular color." The shapes were all symbols of the body of the serpent. The serpent said, "We go now."
I heard a loud clap and a saw a fade to blackness. The next thing I saw was a desert - the Sahara. As I stood in the desert, fascinated by the sea of sand, I saw an appartion in the distance. The shadow grew larger until I realized that a being was approaching. At a certain point, I saw it was a man. The man was very dark, a blackness close to blue. He was wrapped in white cloth with his head wrapped as well. He walked with a staff. Once he was close enough, I could see the grayness in his long beard and his close shaven woolly hair. He call out, "You, sala maa'le cuu. I have been waiting for you." I replied, "Who are you?" He responded, "I am Khrdt n Msr. You don't know me, but I know of you, young one. You are blood." He continued, "We have been anticipating your arrival. Where we stand now is called Tassili n Ajjer, but I truly know it as Mt s Sr." I felt like I knew this man, but from where and how?
He kept talking, "Beneath these sands lay a book of secrets; it's a story of our people, (A)Z. In times passed, we built cities and monuments, but the sea has taken them." He was next to me now and reached out his right hand. His hand had symbols drawn it in what looked like henna ink. His staff was actually wood carved with a serpent going up it with a bird in flight at the top. I noticed around his neck were amulets of 4 pointed stars with some cryptic inscriptions on them. He reached out to embrace in greeting, clasping his hand around my forearm and wrapping his other arm around my back. He pulled away and said, "shst ktr", with a very glutteral "r", while he made finger and hand gestures to the sky. He was signing.
"Young one, we go from here," he said as he walked away and gestured for me to come. My mind went black. When I came to, I was in a city with thousands of Black people walking pass me. We walked down a wide street that a huge marketplace was. I saw some women in headwraps, others with their hair twisted in long twists and others with low afros. He led me down a narrowed walkway with walls of stone on each side. We went into some tunnel, going deeper and deeper into the earth. I could feel a coolness, unlike the heat above the tunnel. We got to an area and everything was forgotten there. The only thing I remember was embracing men and women and seeing a celebration going on. Khrdt n Msr told me, "You are now Sm. You took the vows and the oaths. At one point, we needed no secrecy but because of jackals, scavengers, secrecy affords the loins more life. We go from here."
The next thing I knew I was back in the desert with my guide, Khrdt n Msr. He said, "This is where we were - the beginning and the end appear different although they are the same. Both require respect and expect dignity." Reaching his hands into the sand, Khrdt n Msr made a shallow hole. At the bottom of this hole was stone tablet-like item with markings on it. "Here it is. The Children are looking for this and this is what they need. It has everything they need to create and rebuild, " he said. I glanced at it and saw gemstones embedded between the markings. Before everything could register for me, Khrdt n Msr put the tablet back in its grave and covered it with sand. "I wish I could give it to you, but you can not take anything back. It will stay here until one of the Children comes for it. Remember this is power of the ancients and is what is needed." With that, he rose slowly and began to walk away. I followed Khrdt n Msr with my eyes as far as I could. I understood why I was shown the tablet but also understood why I couldn't take it with me.
This is my experience. I have kept it with me since I have experienced it, hoping I could gain more understanding from it. I am coming into an understanding, but I doubt it is the ultimate.
Blackbird