I wrote this last year when i was a junior in high school. My whole junior year had been depressing so i used to write poems in my daily journal and i decided to share this one wit the family becuz i've moved on......... ______________________________________________ Watch me paste my smile on , securely over my frown. Watch me tape the "lost" sign on for my soul that can't be found. Watch me fake that it's all okay, that nothing's going wrong. Watch me lie right to your face, watch me sing my fake-happy song. See me crumble when I'm alone, to a pile on the floor. See the pain I hide away safely behind locked doors. See the tears and mascara stains, that leave the ugly trace. See me now, see through it all, see the pain across my face. Understand where I'm coming from, care about my past. Understand why it hangs around, why the nightmares always last. Understand that it's all a lie, how I push away like I do. Understand that I don't want that, understand that I want you. Notice how I hide my feelings, locked tightly in a chest. Notice how I always laugh with the real pain and tears repressed. Notice how I silently scream, just hoping that you'll see. Notice all the signs I give, notice you, notice me.