How can i fall in love with you? I know I deserve more How can my heart betray my mind and my soul never find what others have? You say you care about me maybe you do, but what about when i need you to comfort me, hold me, console me? Sundays are the hardest for me. those family times I used to be the center of it all and now alone, only the center of self and at times, I won't lie I love it. But, last night, dinner for just me and you, turned into just me. Again Alone And i find myself wondering if you'll call and now I know the answer, "no." I deadbolt the door, knowing you won't come tonight. I close my bedroom door and I try to remember what it was like when he'd rock me to sleep. I was content for so long and now I can't replace that feeling that longing for human comfort, and i weep. They tell me I will get used to the quiet that they can't believe what I miss. (and they knew how bad got) i should have kept my mouth shut and my head locked i couldn't take it anymore and then you came to me, not promising anything, and i fell in love with your spirit, your mind the man that you are and really when i look deep i think i just loved the idea of love and it wasn't you at all how could it be when you have given me nothing when i need it.