Black Poetry : NOT YOUR"S TO KEEP

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  1. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    What am I to think,
    when I can't even speak your name, without the look of contempt from you

    If though your anger would like to make my life exempt from breathing any life, that I choose, so you decides to smother me, with your hatred,anger and bitterness

    huh,

    how did I allow you to become so dam# controlling over me

    respecting me when only necessary

    which isn't respect at all

    speaking to me, if though you were my stepfather, hating me because I was another man's child

    yes, that is how you make me feel

    Not that you give a dam#.

    Yet you still have the audacity to want me to be sensitive to your needs,

    Yeah right,

    How can you expect me to be to your woman 1 hour out of a 24 hour day, when you need release, yet be your bitc#, out of the other 23 remaining hours, at my expense?

    You really had me fool, me thinking that you loved me

    I must have pray for a man, and forgot to pray for a God fearing man,
    because you are my biggest mistake

    Mistaken, because I didn't put God first, mistaken for me not loving myself enough to realize, that you are to selfish to love anyone but you,
    mistaken sex and passion for a substitute for love
    mistaken the birth of our child, as a substitute for us to be a family, mistaken our marriage as a substitute commitment for life with you

    You are really too much of a man, to give genuine love, yet to selfish of a man to admit, you don't know how to love me,

    so you try to break me down and make me passive to your abuse

    well this is a wake up call for you
    and a reminder for me

    I don't need you, don't want you, almost hate you for being the as$ that you are

    Taking all and giving me nothing in return,
    yet you stand looking down on me, expecting everything that I have to give, even if it's my last breath.
    Well,
    I am officially broke,
    broken hearted, but not yet broken down

    I will not, can not, let you have me,

    So today,
    I am taking me back

    I am gonna take my broke as$, and become rich

    Not in wealth but in health, spirit and peace

    Today is my day

    It's the day, that I will not be afraid of you

    I will not let the sound on your voice and the power of yours words intimidate me, my life or my desire to give love or be love anymore

    Today I am standing up to you, all 6 foot one of you,
    because you can not have me, my spirit, my joy, my peace or my love

    Today is the last day of the rest of my life with you,

    not because I don't love you, but this was the day that was chosen for me
    to Love me,

    So today I am going to take the me back I've allowed you to control, I am taking everything that I once needed, begged and desired from you and I am giving it back to the person,, that deserve it the most.
    ME

    © Copyright 2004 by FINDLOVEINME
     
  2. who~is~she

    who~is~she Active Member MEMBER

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    now this i enjoyed reading. I don't know "him" but your poem made me dislike "him".

    I wanna scream right now,(cuz i've been there). As a matter of fact i think i will. "I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR!!!"
    ok im done.


    yo that drop was ILL.
     
  3. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH, I SINCERLY RESPECT YOUR HONESTY, PLEASE ROAR FOR ME TO

    MUCH LOVE GOES OUT TONIGHT FOR TRUTH AND FREEDOM
     
  4. Eric Mitchell

    Eric Mitchell Active Member MEMBER

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    Once again the power in your words are overwhelming. This piece is intimidating. Wow.
     
  5. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks for supporting my work, It means alot.
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    heavy scribing well felt flow and u sho nuff stood up
    whewwwwwww!! happy i'm on ya good side .....tyte
     
  7. poetic_diva

    poetic_diva Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    WOW!!!! sis, you told this good. You made me proud. LOL. This was a very awesome piece and very uplifting. I'm glad you decided to take "you" back, and learned how to love yourself, because if you don't first no one else can. This was a very good wake up call to all in the same sitituation. Much love and many blessings. Keep your head up. And Remember:


    "I can do all things through Christ, which strenghtens me" Philip 4:13

    Poetic_diva

    :angel1: :angel1: :angel1: :love: :spin: :spin: :spin: :wink: :wink: :wink:
     
  8. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks for the replies, It's not always easy to write about these types of situations, but it nice to know, that there are people out there that cares.
     
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    jazzymoonchild Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Girl

    This is an awesome piece! Have I been here a few times!! This was filled with emotions that I can relate to
     
  10. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    The mind can be a very dangerous place to think. This piece was actually just thoughts that I decided to write down in the midst of all the bull.

    thanks for the responses, funny how most of us have been there, done that
     
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