Not feeling this today
The pain
Seems to take on
More weight around
this time of the year
I cover my heart
And have shield my
soul as I fold into
my little corner…
For I am ashame…..
I blame myself ….
Not feeling this today
For I never let go…
I don’t know how
For you where my life….
My baby…..
My friend....
My angel…
wish I had
Your strength…..
but I dont
Not knowing which way to
turn or how to take
This all in
Not feeling this today…..
At first everyone
tried to be you
Then they thought
I was you
Until I blew
that fuse….then I figured
it was my role…in being
your daughter and the only girl
that I must do as you….be
strong forever one else
instead of myself…..so here I am
Lost in my world in my time
Tryin to figure out why….
See after all this time
I still don’t understand
I wish I did but I don’t….
Alone scared and hurt
Full of pain…..your really gone
Not feeling this today…..
Momma how do I deal
I miss you more then ever
Before….see it feels like
The walls are closing in
And my breath is leaving…..
Barely standing…stomach
Turnin…mind spinnin
World crumbing
The presence of you
Seems to be all around
But I don’t understand
Why……as I try not
To cry and be strong
pretending.....
for every one else…
so they can get by....
Not feeling this today….
This year it seems harder
Then the first year that
You where gone…..I don’t
Understand….Just
Not feeling this today…….
The pain
Seems to take on
More weight around
this time of the year
I cover my heart
And have shield my
soul as I fold into
my little corner…
For I am ashame…..
I blame myself ….
Not feeling this today
For I never let go…
I don’t know how
For you where my life….
My baby…..
My friend....
My angel…
wish I had
Your strength…..
but I dont
Not knowing which way to
turn or how to take
This all in
Not feeling this today…..
At first everyone
tried to be you
Then they thought
I was you
Until I blew
that fuse….then I figured
it was my role…in being
your daughter and the only girl
that I must do as you….be
strong forever one else
instead of myself…..so here I am
Lost in my world in my time
Tryin to figure out why….
See after all this time
I still don’t understand
I wish I did but I don’t….
Alone scared and hurt
Full of pain…..your really gone
Not feeling this today…..
Momma how do I deal
I miss you more then ever
Before….see it feels like
The walls are closing in
And my breath is leaving…..
Barely standing…stomach
Turnin…mind spinnin
World crumbing
The presence of you
Seems to be all around
But I don’t understand
Why……as I try not
To cry and be strong
pretending.....
for every one else…
so they can get by....
Not feeling this today….
This year it seems harder
Then the first year that
You where gone…..I don’t
Understand….Just
Not feeling this today…….