Black Poetry : NO Father

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  1. monad.poetress

    monad.poetress Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    NO Father :cry:
    By Monad.poetress

    Eighteen years I lived in a major state of denial
    I tried to ignore all the pain I felt and all the continous trials
    I tried to never contribute the fact that I didn't have a dad
    To all the major bull**** and painful years I had
    I made myself believe that I didn't need him around
    I said to myself ANY father lost is better than MY father found
    He didn't love me anyway he could care less
    I said God sent me here without a dad and I must pass the test
    But the test was so hard and I failed each and every part
    Thats when all these feelings came pouring from my heart
    I couldn't lie any longer
    It hurt me oh so bad
    Why I gotta hurt so much where the hell is my dad
    Pretending not to have him only made it worse
    Why I gotta be alone..Is this some kind of curse
    Did I do something wrong that made him disappear without a clue
    Should I still hurt so much at the age of twenty two
    By now I should feel better and not even think twice
    But how could he forget me this man gave me life
    I hate him...I love him
    I want to forget he's my dad
    But what do I call him - the dad I never had
    Its not like he's waiting to one day stroll into my life
    He gave up on me long ago.... He has another wife
    Maybe he has kids and lives somewhere far away
    And maybe he thinks about me each and every day
    It hurts..and I cry...Cause I feel deserted too
    The tears are in memory of the man I never knew
     
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    THEONE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    very heart felt piece, nice drop sis keep them coming :deal: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
     
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    very nicely done here flow on
     
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    monad.poetress,
    U really wrote the ?#$?&* outta this

    May U continue onward
    And gain extra might
    May what you've missed in a Dad
    Give you extra insight
    And propel you forward
    Above all the mess
    And help to catapult you
    On to high success.......

    Peace and Blessings
     
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    monad.poetress Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thank you Rasheed :spin:
     
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    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    You did this subject justice, the tears just poured out of your soul onto paper. Feeling the emotions here, well done.
     
  7. Alpha Male

    Alpha Male Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    reply to Monad Poetess

    Eighteen winters I’ve slept with denial
    Ignoring dreams of pains and nightmares of trials
    Tossed and turned by the fact that I lacked a dad
    Restless nights turned to painfull years, turned me sad
    I have kissed caressed and made love to this notion:
    "Mom with out a husband brought mom more devotion"
    Eighteen years I lived in a major state of denial
    I tried to ignore all the pain I felt and all the continous trials
    I tried to never contribute the fact that I didn't have a dad
    To all the major bull**** and painful years I had
    I made myself believe that I didn't need him around
    I said to myself ANY father lost is better than MY father found
    He didn't love me anyway he could care less
    I said God sent me here without a dad and I must pass the test
    But the test was so hard and I failed each and every part
    Thats when all these feelings came pouring from my heart
    I couldn't lie any longer
    It hurt me oh so bad
    Why I gotta hurt so much where the hell is my dad
    Pretending not to have him only made it worse
    Why I gotta be alone..Is this some kind of curse
    Did I do something wrong that made him disappear without a clue
    Should I still hurt so much at the age of twenty two
    By now I should feel better and not even think twice
    But how could he forget me this man gave me life
    I hate him...I love him
    I want to forget he's my dad
    But what do I call him - the dad I never had
    Its not like he's waiting to one day stroll into my life
    He gave up on me long ago.... He has another wife
    Maybe he has kids and lives somewhere far away
    And maybe he thinks about me each and every day
    It hurts..and I cry...Cause I feel deserted too
    The tears are in memory of the man I never knew[/QUOTE]
     
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